SOLITARY CONFINEMENT -SHORT STORIES - NEWS AND OPINIONS - JUST PLAIN OLD STRAIGHT TALK ~~
Wasted Honor -
Carl R. ToersBijns is the author of the Wasted Honor Trilogy [Wasted Honor I,II and Gorilla Justice] and his newest book From the Womb to the Tomb, the Tony Lester Story, which is a reflection of his life and his experiences as a correctional officer and a correctional administrator retiring with the rank of deputy warden in the New Mexico and Arizona correctional systems.
Carl also wrote a book on his combat experience in the Kindle book titled - Combat Medic - Men with destiny - A red cross of Valor -
Carl is considered by many a rogue expert in the field of prison security systems since leaving the profession. Carl has been involved in the design of many pilot programs related to mental health treatment, security threat groups, suicide prevention, and maximum custody operational plans including double bunking max inmates and enhancing security for staff. He invites you to read his books so you can understand and grasp the cultural and political implications and influences of these prisons. He deals with the emotions, the stress and anxiety as well as the realities faced working inside a prison. He deals with the occupational risks while elaborating on the psychological impact of both prison worker and prisoner.
His most recent book, Gorilla Justice, is an un-edited raw fictional version of realistic prison experiences and events through the eyes of an anecdotal translation of the inmate’s plight and suffering while enduring the harsh and toxic prison environment including solitary confinement.
Carl has been interviewed by numerous news stations and newspapers in Phoenix regarding the escape from the Kingman prison and other high profile media cases related to wrongful deaths and suicides inside prisons. His insights have been solicited by the ACLU, Amnesty International, and various other legal firms representing solitary confinement cases in California and Arizona. He is currently working on the STG Step Down program at Pelican Bay and has offered his own experience insights with the Center of Constitutional Rights lawyers and interns to establish a core program at the SHU units. He has personally corresponded and written with SHU prisoners to assess the living conditions and how it impacts their long term placement inside these type of units that are similar to those in Arizona Florence Eyman special management unit where Carl was a unit deputy warden for almost two years before his promotion to Deputy Warden of Operations in Safford and Eyman.
He is a strong advocate for the mentally ill and is a board member of David's Hope Inc. a non-profit advocacy group in Phoenix and also serves as a senior advisor for Law Enforcement Officers Advocates Council in Chino, California As a subject matter expert and corrections consultant, Carl has provided interviews and spoken on national and international radio talk shows e.g. BBC CBC Lou Show & TV shows as well as the Associated Press.
I use sarcasm, satire, parodies and other means to make you think!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Carl also wrote a book on his combat experience in the Kindle book titled - Combat Medic - Men with destiny - A red cross of Valor -
Carl is considered by many a rogue expert in the field of prison security systems since leaving the profession. Carl has been involved in the design of many pilot programs related to mental health treatment, security threat groups, suicide prevention, and maximum custody operational plans including double bunking max inmates and enhancing security for staff. He invites you to read his books so you can understand and grasp the cultural and political implications and influences of these prisons. He deals with the emotions, the stress and anxiety as well as the realities faced working inside a prison. He deals with the occupational risks while elaborating on the psychological impact of both prison worker and prisoner.
His most recent book, Gorilla Justice, is an un-edited raw fictional version of realistic prison experiences and events through the eyes of an anecdotal translation of the inmate’s plight and suffering while enduring the harsh and toxic prison environment including solitary confinement.
Carl has been interviewed by numerous news stations and newspapers in Phoenix regarding the escape from the Kingman prison and other high profile media cases related to wrongful deaths and suicides inside prisons. His insights have been solicited by the ACLU, Amnesty International, and various other legal firms representing solitary confinement cases in California and Arizona. He is currently working on the STG Step Down program at Pelican Bay and has offered his own experience insights with the Center of Constitutional Rights lawyers and interns to establish a core program at the SHU units. He has personally corresponded and written with SHU prisoners to assess the living conditions and how it impacts their long term placement inside these type of units that are similar to those in Arizona Florence Eyman special management unit where Carl was a unit deputy warden for almost two years before his promotion to Deputy Warden of Operations in Safford and Eyman.
He is a strong advocate for the mentally ill and is a board member of David's Hope Inc. a non-profit advocacy group in Phoenix and also serves as a senior advisor for Law Enforcement Officers Advocates Council in Chino, California As a subject matter expert and corrections consultant, Carl has provided interviews and spoken on national and international radio talk shows e.g. BBC CBC Lou Show & TV shows as well as the Associated Press.
I use sarcasm, satire, parodies and other means to make you think!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, March 16, 2016
Sunday, March 6, 2016
Nana's House, the Lemon Tree - Fictional and non-fictional short story
Nana’s house is a short story about an Arizona family
enduring the political storms of SB 1070, the economic hardships of finding
work and the daily stress and multi-cultural challenges found in most Hispanic
homes living in the Phoenix metro area and exposed to different dynamics that
are related to immigration, basic household living, cultural clashes and
festivities, life, death, sorrow and imprisonment of family members associated
with street or prison gangs.
The lemon tree is an analogy of the bittersweet fruit that
exists in every household that endures the daily anxieties and struggles of a
minority family living during troublesome times and dysfunctional elements of
raising kids in the poor side of town and making sure they finish school and do
something productive with their lives.
Friday, March 4, 2016
The Zest of Water
The Zest of Water
The Lust for Water does not resist temptation
A human’s lust for thirst is never a sin
The feel of water is often soft as it falls out of the sky
As it was never meant to harm you
The strength of water is bound by laws of nature
To give you what you truly desire inside your
soul
Because it is true to nature and all its power
It can shift your moods from rapid thinking to
a chilling slow
Water always returns back to its true form or shape
It is granting your lust for life, and is
endlessly changing
It can find you love, grief or sorrow or joy
For it does not lack the desire to please or
disappoint you
The zest of water brings endless passionate desires
It fulfills an endless life of enrichment to
soothe your soul
Whether you are letting it go, or bringing it close to you
It is always constantly changing by letting it
flow
Water can bring you enrichments of life or cause a sudden death
It does not cling to either without a special
purpose
It finds its own level and essence in life as far as we know
By forever and never letting things go without
a reason
So do not cling to water for too long as it may drown you
Even though its ecstasy is eternally giving
Like the sun, the heavens and moon above
It permeates all living things around us light
or night
And when things eventually die, the water
remains
It teaches us reason and purposes under the
stars of heaven
It reasons with us that all things that are born shall die
Yet, when it is all said and done, it is never
really over
Water is here for us, fulfilling our ego
As it fills our body and soul with
vibrations and ripples for living
Tuesday, February 23, 2016
Sinuous Expressions
Sinuous Expressions
of a Mystery Woman – an Unusual Attraction
It came to pass my ears heard a
song coming out of the dense jungle. Surely, this was my imagination. The song
was mesmerizing like the rhythm of the rain, and its sinuous melody handled my heart
and mind with love and curiosity. Surely, it was not safe to enter the density
darkened foliage without a guide to help me stay on the path and not stray away
from civilization.
Once again, my will was formed by my
own curiosity, as my footsteps hastened towards the sounds of laughter and joy.
My ears were blazingly hot from the desire to find the source of this sinuous
expression of music, while my body felt the impact of the pouring rain steadily
falling on my head. Mysterious visions were forming in my imagination. It was
like I took a drug or something intoxicating.
Certainly, my heart was pounding
faster, seeking the satisfaction of the impending bond of the unknown with deep
anticipation. For once in my life, I felt alive. There was a strong
reincarnation deep inside of me that caused this sinuous melody to move me like
I never moved before.
With the sounds of a strange and
never heard before melody closing within with every step I took, I drifted away
into an imaginary world of romance. There it seemed, I found an unusual persuasive
passion, strumming my soul along with the beat of the jungle now wide open as
the rain clouds began clearing and showing me the clarity of the night under
the heavens and moon above.
There was silence, complete
silence as the rhythm had been drowned out to voice. Voices that invited me to
sit with them and retire for the night. Fully awakened at midnight, I stared up
to the stars and felt a blessing come over me as the stars twinkled brightly as
if they were saying I was home, I was home.
Sometime early morning, I awoke
with a beautiful woman by my side. Her jade green eyes flashed announced
herself as a goddess of love and beauty. My heart, softly beating and nearly
still, told me she was the one, she was the one. Flashing her stunning smile,
she held my hand as she spoke to me softly.
Melodious and rhythmically
vibrations responded to these enhanced ambiences, drowning out my past and only
envisioning my future. Surely, such a captured moment of romance would not last
forever, it never does or had, as I had experienced it at best, last very long.
This curvaceous woman only added
to the mystery of what was happening. Seeking an answer, I whispered to her
softly in her ear; “what am I doing here.” Her smile was captivating; her voice
was made of silk. Her mere presence as she gazed into my eyes, was that of a
beneficent flower that had the power to confer harmony, melody and symmetry to
take my love for her to a spiritual elevation and joy beyond anything I had
ever experienced before.
These heavy cosmic rhythms
personified our romantic interlude and emotions. Her presence the night before
was like an ascending star coming down like an angel from heaven. An angel who
wanted to be loved and held by me, and only me.
Somehow, at the end of the second
day, this special moment had turned into rare occasion of peace and harmony
inside of me. For once in my life the stars, universe and the earth, wind, rain
and fire, all had come together and coincided to bring me the most beautiful
woman I have ever met, declaring my soul completely full with human contentment
and desires.
Monday, February 22, 2016
Setting Boundaries
Setting Boundaries
with Difficult People
Tim Richardson
Life is not as complicated as we make it when we follow or
establish some reasonable boundaries in our lifestyle, behaviors or choices. Boundaries
are not about making threats or ultimatums. This is a process that determines
choices, and consequences for good or bad decisions made. One cannot function in
a wellness state of mind without boundaries.
Boundaries are space setters. It is an imaginable or
intangible limit imposed between you and another person either in personal or
professional relationships. What makes boundaries difficult to adhere to or
follow is the fact that they are guided on your morality or values and not
identified clearly by a razor wire fence or stakes in the ground telling you
where you should go and how you should proceed. This places all the responsibilities
on you, the gatekeeper of your mind and heart. Whether or not you cross that
line and open that forbidden gate is entirely up to you.
Setting boundaries are invisible arrangements of rules which
ensure your trustworthiness as well as those of others. Boundaries serve as
tools for protection as well as comfort. It is a simple way of taking care of
yourself in life. Good boundaries don’t always come easy and have to be learned
the hard way sometimes. It can be easier if you could watch others cross
boundaries and see what happens to them when they do but it just doesn’t work
that way.
Therefore, the way you grow up sets up these boundaries and
hopefully you learn from your mistakes and not repeat them as you define their consequences
in your life. If you grew up in a dysfunctional family, then chances are you
have not learned how to set a boundary or even really know what it is.
Learning to set our own healthy boundaries is an exercise in
personal freedom. It means getting to know ourselves and increasing our
awareness of where we stand and what we stand for. It means letting go of the
unhealthy things or people in our lives so that we can grow into the healthy
person that we were meant to be.
How to set boundaries requires the ability to communicate
and communicate without blaming or lying about the circumstances, emotions or
the impacts. Avoidance is not conducive to setting these parameters in your
life and the better you detail your feelings, expectations and perspectives,
the more effective these boundaries serve your purpose in life.
It is impossible to set boundaries without setting
consequences. If you are setting boundaries in a relationship, it is important
that your reactions and interactions are consistent with your values and expectations
and if the other person(s) disregard your attitudes, then you need to confront
them and tell them you cannot or will not tolerate such abuse of your values
and not put up with it without taking the appropriate action to either redirect
the relationship or terminate it.
Friday, February 19, 2016
A Reflection of chances and visions
A Reflection – Chances
More than a quarter of a century ago, I chose a profession that was considered to be the lowest rung on the criminal justice ladder. Hired on as a prison guard at a Santa Fe prison in New Mexico, just a few years after the second worst prison riot in the country had occurred, I learned the hard way that chance is the only legitimate way to prepare the mind.
I quickly learned that inside prisons, nothing just happens. There are many “flashes of insight” that warns us of the things that happen. It is by these insights, these precious moments of vision and understanding that produces the proper preparation that is the key to a successful career.
It is true, leaders must have vision and keen intuitive abilities to sense the presence of danger as well as calm. Under some of the best prison employees I trained to become a correctional officer and step up from being called or recognized as a prison guard.
This training, some formal and some very informal in nature exposed me to numerous key challenges for self-development and growth of the profession. At the same time, I was training, I learned to pay attention to my mentors’ instincts and intuition. It appeared they learned how to react to adversity or danger. I even took a formal education to seek that elusive degree in criminal justice.
The ability to synchronize feelings and emotions along with knowledge stepped up my abilities as well as those around me. After a dozen years of working in uniform, I transitioned from the line to the desk. Certainly, a step I have no regrets or qualms with as they helped me proliferate and promote those principles and ethics taught to me at the school of hard knocks.
My decision to leave the line for additional responsibilities as an administrator were cultivated by the position that required duties and responsibilities to ensure the safe and secure operation of an adult prison. It was true that many tasks and duties required were similar to the activities I was already doing.
Prison management is not and should never be performed in an evenly remote fashion. It requires a hands on approach that should focus on public and staff safety foremost.
The administering of duties and assure compliance in a very complex criminal justice field is critical to law and order. It also encompasses the very realm of human and civil rights that should never be ignored or trampled upon.
Currently, I get extreme satisfaction of my retirement and consulting in the business of prison best practices and offer my skills, knowledge and abilities to make the profession better and safer.
One could say that retirement has offered me an enormous satisfaction and opportunities for working in a relationship that focuses on research, training and other programs aimed at decreasing workplace violence, human right violations and the stabilization of civility within a hostile environment.
My compensation and blessings are achieved by listening and watching inspired individuals who want to excel in their career and leadership character.
From this view, I can speak with all individuals about the academics and benefits of the job – I often think to myself, coming up through the ranks as a rookie prison guard evolving in a professional correctional officer.
No longer a prison guard, and climbing the ladder as designed by opportunities and chances that gave me the vision to make something good happen in the lives of others and my own.
Saturday, February 13, 2016
The essence of Religion, Faith and Conflict
The Power of
Inspiration and the
Creation of Doctrines
& Conflict
In
order to acquire knowledge, one must possess inspiration for in a very poetic
manner, inspiration bring us character – an individual trait exclusive to
person, place or thing, and is figurative, vague and indefinite. Therefore,
when men are inspired they rise about the philosophy of life and focus on the
advanced forms of thinking.
Thus
we create a religion or a way of life that rises above dreaming and verses. Inspiration
shapes character, attitudes and works steadily towards the desire to find the
ultimate realities of life. In many ways, the ultimate reality of life exceeds
the limitations of man. It moves entire religions or societies to enlarge
personal or philosophical claims and bring prosperity and satisfaction. Yet, in
its simplistic terms, it is all relative to the time and space we occupy.
Secondly,
the application of philosophy creates a logical method to create a religion. Since
there are no laws applied to the spirit of philosophy, it becomes a free
inquiry and open to many assumptions and ideas. Eventually, these ideas can be
converted to deeds or actions that create the staple of the religion as it
eliminates the critical assumptions from the uncritical ones, cleansing the
process to develop the path to faith.
After
all, the essence of any religion is the foundation of faith; and faith, like
anything living, sees its presence in a trackless wandering manner that is unattended
by intellect which in time and practice, develop a spirit or heart of a man and
creates an invisible wealth inside him.
Although
facing the ultimate reality, faith is nothing more than a feeling. It has
cognitive content and may exist in opposing men or parties. Such division of
faith creates different religions. Apart from the idea of this religion, there
becomes a need to establish a doctrine for such ideas to guide behaviors and
rituals connected to the links of the tracks of the invisible faith. Such doctrines
become truths and vowed upon by those believing, to be the ultimate reality of
life.
Eventually
men establish a system of general truths which have the effect of transforming the
desired character when they are sincerely held and vividly apprehended by those
ideals now turned into deeds.
This
cycle of inspiration has created process of transformation and guides man’s
inner and outer souls. That is the
primary aim of religion; that is the obvious desire of establishing general
truths and embody it into the designed doctrines. Ultimately, it is settled on
to be the truth.
This
is where there is conflict with truth and science. No one doubts faith and the
resulting doctrines based on philosophical principles. In the process, religion
stands in greater need of a rational foundation of its ultimate principles than
even the dogmas of science sometimes creating conflicts.
One
cannot rationalize faith – for to rationalize faith would be contradictory to
the philosophy imposed or implied. Doubt would cast an individual’s faith in
the religion and be judged either unfit or misaligned with such doctrines. If one
was to not submit to their own free thinking, they would have to blindly follow
a religion they do not agree with except in philosophical terms and not as a
law.
Man
has found the jurisdiction of philosophy except on its own terms. While sitting
in judgement on religion, philosophy cannot give religion an inferior place
among its data. Hence the conflict is everlasting unless one submits to the religious
beliefs so mandated.
Religion
is not an arbitrary position in the universe, either you believe in what you
live or reject it. more seriously, it is neither departmental or proportional
or a mere thought – it is based on character, attitude and deeds or actions. It
is an expression of a whole man – not divided, however, based on different
principles, mankind could find themselves at odds over the ideologies or
doctrines involved.
This
brings us to the modern times religion and faith. Once grasped as a custom,
tradition or practice, it takes entire new doctrines to change the direction. Religion,
although piecemealed through time, is progressively a works towards wholeness –
a process that make take eternity. Man can only enjoy the faith and pleasures
they have embraced to seek the inner peace of their own soul. These thoughts
and intuitions drive their behaviors. Faith cannot stand still – it needs
constant rejuvenation and seeks visions of the same reality that reveals itself
in time and space as well as how they live in accordance with their function in
life.
Nor
is there any reason to suppose that thought and intuition are essentially
opposed to each other. They spring up from the same root and complement each
other. The one grasps religious piecemeal, the other grasps it in its
wholeness. The one fixes its gaze on the eternal, the other on the temporal
aspect of the reality that surrounds them.
This
is the process when man searches for a rational foundation in their religion. Best
described as the constant works of later formed mystics, visions and successive
chapters in the history of their culture, customs and practices with a desired
spirit to establish a coherent system of doctrines based on those ideas and
spirits devoted to seek the truth gathered from various theological movements
around them.
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