Wasted Honor -

Carl R. ToersBijns is the author of the Wasted Honor Trilogy [Wasted Honor I,II and Gorilla Justice] and his newest book From the Womb to the Tomb, the Tony Lester Story, which is a reflection of his life and his experiences as a correctional officer and a correctional administrator retiring with the rank of deputy warden in the New Mexico and Arizona correctional systems.

Carl also wrote a book on his combat experience in the Kindle book titled - Combat Medic - Men with destiny - A red cross of Valor -

Carl is considered by many a rogue expert in the field of prison security systems since leaving the profession. Carl has been involved in the design of many pilot programs related to mental health treatment, security threat groups, suicide prevention, and maximum custody operational plans including double bunking max inmates and enhancing security for staff. He invites you to read his books so you can understand and grasp the cultural and political implications and influences of these prisons. He deals with the emotions, the stress and anxiety as well as the realities faced working inside a prison. He deals with the occupational risks while elaborating on the psychological impact of both prison worker and prisoner.

His most recent book, Gorilla Justice, is an un-edited raw fictional version of realistic prison experiences and events through the eyes of an anecdotal translation of the inmate’s plight and suffering while enduring the harsh and toxic prison environment including solitary confinement.

Carl has been interviewed by numerous news stations and newspapers in Phoenix regarding the escape from the Kingman prison and other high profile media cases related to wrongful deaths and suicides inside prisons. His insights have been solicited by the ACLU, Amnesty International, and various other legal firms representing solitary confinement cases in California and Arizona. He is currently working on the STG Step Down program at Pelican Bay and has offered his own experience insights with the Center of Constitutional Rights lawyers and interns to establish a core program at the SHU units. He has personally corresponded and written with SHU prisoners to assess the living conditions and how it impacts their long term placement inside these type of units that are similar to those in Arizona Florence Eyman special management unit where Carl was a unit deputy warden for almost two years before his promotion to Deputy Warden of Operations in Safford and Eyman.

He is a strong advocate for the mentally ill and is a board member of David's Hope Inc. a non-profit advocacy group in Phoenix and also serves as a senior advisor for Law Enforcement Officers Advocates Council in Chino, California As a subject matter expert and corrections consultant, Carl has provided interviews and spoken on national and international radio talk shows e.g. BBC CBC Lou Show & TV shows as well as the Associated Press.

I use sarcasm, satire, parodies and other means to make you think!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
































































































































Thursday, April 21, 2011

What is “Going Rogue”” really mean to you

Politics adds new words and new phrases every time we have an election or campaign that attempts to expose or revile a person’s personality, reputation or points of view. Although not very positive in characteristics this practice has been condoned and accepted now for many decades thus a matter of record if one chooses to enter the political arena. The most obvious ““rogue”” is Sarah Palin who in her own words writing a book that describes her “story” as an American and dedicated, devoted, loyal and spirited individual who does not back away from a controversy and speaks loud and clear on matters that are important to her and her family. Her conviction is strong and must be acknowledged by those who resent her ethics, energy and motivation to spur others to think for themselves.

It is a given that once you decide to challenge the system on any topic or matter of interest, you are instantly targeted to be destroyed or decimated to a lower standard than those who oppose your points of view or spirit. Digging into your background for mischievous conduct, controversial statements, or even marital or personal relationship questions, they are desperately focused to bury you in your own history and deflect their flaws towards your direction to get you to address your own issues rather than theirs.

Some say a “rogue” person is a mischievous person or someone who stopped or ceased to follow orders that contradict their training or previous position in an organization. Going against other’s expectations and direction not to proceed with your own agenda is often considered a direction to pursue one’s own personal interests or ideas. The word ‘mischievous” is most appropriate as it is not a criminal position but rather an ill-behaved or unacceptable behavior that offends others. In this particular case, it might be your former boss, organization or peer group. Regardless, it is not criminal in nature and could be considered both playful and manipulated to achieve a goal.

A “rogue” may be a deceitful or unscrupulous person in manner or he or she can be honest and attempting to bring out the truth about subject matter that others are trying to hide thus discredit you by labeling you as a “disgruntled” former employee completely disregarding the fact that before you went ““rogue”” you were an acceptable partner in their business like conduct as you conformed to their standards and their expectations. A "rogue" can be a former partner in a business who worked side by side and learned the intimate makings of the business and when he or she decides to go off and start their own business, their former partners fear the competition and smear this person with labels that they think will cause him or her failure and defeat their business attempts to go on their own.

It has been said a “rogue” person keeps bad company. It appears that many times, a “rogue” is in the company of many good people who have the overall good for the masses in mind rather that the good for a few. Such principles are admirable and should be encouraged rather than condemned. Thus we agree that a “rogue” person is an individual who may or may not be politically correct. He or she may produce positivity influences or be regarded as a disruptive negative manipulated persuasion on other’s thinking. Finally, a “rogue” could be a person who switched sides and perceived to be no longer on the same side as they were once thought to be for reasons known the persons but that others are unwilling to accept.

Whether a “rogue” or a non-conformist, your goal is to make people think about the issues you bring forth for discussion and deliberation. This is still the American way to find the truth on matters that are often deeply hidden and kept from the many to serve a few.

For instance if there is an administrator, an accountant, an officer or an individual [group] who is said to go “rogue”. It means that he or she [they] is no longer following the original plan and they decided to follow their own plan that none of his superiors have approved. If the initial plan was to follow Plan A or even Plan B as a back-up and the administrator does something that is completely unrelated to the two plans then he is perceived to go “rogue”. It becomes unsure which side the good side is now because he or she is following their own plan. He or she becomes unpredictable and their actions are spontaneous. Their ethics are questioned by those offended but are applauded by those who benefit from the item for consideration delivered to balance the environment.

Planning A Prison Break Lyrics

Warden's calling for a lockdown, baby


He'll call on interim inequities

This is the last night in my body;

Assist in the escape

Warden's calling on a jailbreak, baby

He'll fly like only a jailbird could

He'll fly like only a jailbird could



Like a felon, he fell into scandals,

Scams, and master plans

To circumvent all circumstances

He thought to his throat,

"We can swallow this key and leave when we please"

Let's hope this stomach, stomach

Let's hope this stomach disagrees



Warden's calling for a lockdown, baby

He'll call on interim inequities

This is the last night in my body;

Assist in the escape

Warden's calling on a jailbreak, baby

He'll fly like only a jailbird could

He'll fly like only a jailbird could



"Make a clean getaway," he said,

With his hands outstretched

To nurse her neck

She lured him in with a masochistic kiss

And he wished he could be anywhere, be anywhere but here



Warden's calling for a lockdown, baby

He'll call on interim inequities

This is the last night in my body;

Assist in the escape

Warden's calling on a jailbreak, baby

He'll fly like only a jailbird could

He'll fly like only a jailbird could



Arm (he could be anywhere)

in arm we walk (but here, but here)

outside (he could be anywhere)

so that all we've done was not in vain. (but here, but here)



Warden's calling for a lockdown, baby

He'll call on interim inequities

This is the last night in my body;

So assist in the escape

Warden's calling on a jailbreak, baby

He'll fly like only a jailbird could

He'll fly like only a jailbird could



Warden's calling for a lockdown, baby (Somehow,)

He'll call on interim inequities (for now,)

This is the last night in my body; (this skin will have to do.)

So assist in the escape

Warden's calling on a jailbreak, baby (Somehow,)

He'll fly like only a jailbird could (for now,)

He'll fly like only a jailbird could (this skin will have to do.)



This is the last night in my body, yeah.

[repeat till end]




Artist (Band): The Receiving End Of Sirens

How prison changes the Human Psyche of the employee

Every article you read is written about the change of mindset in prisoners who are incarcerated and placed inside these dark places called prisons. Not much is really talked about or even written about the “prisonization” of staff or correctional officer specifically and that is sad because there is so much to learn about the human mind when put into a place such as this.

Society has made it clear that through the numerous studies provided by state universities and private grants, that the environment that exists within these prisons influence or affects the human psyche more than it is led up to do as we all agree that the prison world is an isolated world. Isolated from the norms of society and where rules and cultures oversee the daily events dictated by power, greed and control.

Every day, the warden and those employees paid to work closely with these convicted felons are faced with challenges that include life and death situations as well as routines that are common inside a small town or city resembling some sort of social order but different none the less. The power is between three cultures that exist behind the walls.

The first culture belongs to the prisoners who fall into the category of predatory and manipulative. These groups consist of violent and non-violent offenders but share common ground on their culture and their “code” to survive inside a prison. It is true that many join gangs based on their ethnicity or race to receive personal protection from the masses and do so to reap the benefits of belonging to a gang. Whether violent or non-violent they find a position within the cultural phenomena that gangs are a reality for the administration to deal with daily. The second culture is the warden and executive staff that oversees the entire prison operation and has to impose those policies and procedures to maintain a firm control over behaviors, spending and threats. The last culture, no less the least, is the culture that exists within the correctional ranks that enforce those rules and policies to the point they have to put their lives on the line to gain compliance from those who have already demonstrated a will of anarchy and refusal to comply with societal rules and now prison rules.

So as these books are written and illustrate these cultures of the prisonization of men and women behind the razor wire, seldom does the writer include the changes that impact employees that work there as well. All employees who work within the razor wire and high walls share two things in their jobs; fear is constant and stress or anxiety is a part of their daily routine that changes them over time. Daily challenges of their ability to control and handle their work environment is conducted by the prison population to see if they can manipulate them into working for “them” thus the attempt to corrupt the employee is first most to gain the upper hand.

Just like prisoners coming into the system are forced to show their “paper” to show what kind of person they were on the outside, so does the employee receive similar challenges to see what kind of person they are and what makes them tick. The prisoner looks for weak spots in both the psychics of the person and the physical abilities to carry their own weight.

Perhaps this isn’t the most dangerous job in the world but it ranks right up there with being a combat soldier, a fire fighter or a street cop that are equipped to properly defend themselves against harm or danger. A correctional officer, unless he is armed to do a transport or an escort that is pre-planned, is never armed except with a radio, perhaps a canister of mace or just a pair of handcuffs. Maybe, that would make this the most dangerous job in the world.

Walking into the gates of hell inside these dirty and un-kept prisons is risky to say the least. First the actuality or possibility of being physically harmed at any time during your shift is a reality to where you work. Second, the filth and the dirty air carries with it disease and contamination that you would not want to bring home to your family or friends. And last, your mindset has to adjust to elevate your survival skills over those who are preying on you to make your life a living hell while you are at work. As the days go by, your slowly learn the games they play and the appropriate moves to counter their tactics as you grow with experience and learn that almost everything they tell you is to benefit them one way or another. It is never about the “good” guy but most seldom it is about “him” the prisoner.

As you walk the gauntlets inside the yards and corridors, you will get bumped, hit, kicked, bitten, spat on and even stabbed or hit with a flying object or prison made dart. The weapons are abounding inside such a place as any object can be made into a deadly thing. As the mentality changes from the neutral mindset you came in with, you are now formulating a new psyche that brings forth an “us versus them” attitude that must endure the entire shift or fall victim to their ploys to compromise you or even damage you if the opportunity arises. Within months, you have adapted to the new mindset and are determined to treat them as lesser humans than you though of them before you donned the uniform and the badge. You see and you experience their brutalities towards each other and your peers and you decided that you won’t tolerate that kind of abuse from them or anyone else. Thus you are now thinking of these prisoners as the lowest form of human life there is to elevate your own status as a means of survival.

This change in psyche can occur once or twice or even more than twice in your career. It depends on your social awareness skills and your ethics and morals that you grew up with. Many times during your career you will fall into these pits of transformation to another mindset and it takes another person to bring you back to that baseline of behavior you have found to be suitable for this kind of job as you struggle to make it for the next twenty years or so. Not every person reaches the extremes of these different levels of conduct and many never reach the level of misconduct but as a whole entity and one work group, we all suffer the same consequences as a few step out of line and show the world that working inside of prisons can corrupt your thoughts, your heart and your mind if you let it to be that way.

The thoughts of death were omitted on purpose although I know now with the new breed of violent prisoners being incarcerated throughout our prison systems; they have become bolder, stronger and more likely to kill rather than to inflict serious injury and maim the person for life. This trend is currently contributed by the overcrowding of prisons, the reduction in meaningful programming and the severe shortage of staffing these hell holes to keep these officers safe while at work. This most dangerous trend is growing and there seems to be no answer to this problem as life inside the penitentiary is becoming an expendable and a less valued treasure to those who run the prisons on both sides.

Another aspect of this affect is the impact of this stress and fear absorbed by these correctional workers as they pass it on to their families and friends. Raising children and demonstrating those qualities of sound parenthood requires certain capabilities that can often be impaired be these deep physiological driven emotions or influences in our lives. The fact that many employees possess an element(s) of post-traumatic stress creates another concern when it comes to raising these children are directly impacted or influenced by their parent’s actions, thoughts and emotions.

Although the fear that exists within the workplace or job is a genuine element that keeps them on their toes and enabling them to sense and respond to the dangers, this can spiral out of control and create other factors in their lives such as anxiety disorders, panic disorders, obsessive compulsive disorders and social anxiety disorders, it must be managed and dealt with in a most positive manner.

Today, with the massive growth in the prison systems nationwide, there is a genuine need to a solution to the mentality that locking the masses of prisoners up has no affect on the employees and families. This is becoming a most urgent matter as times have changed and disasters are more common and frequent in severity. The most influential forces known to man are not the use of the world’s powers to use nuclear weapons on other humans or nature’s wrath that creates earthquakes and tsunamis but the thoughts and ideas that exist in the mind. The dangers of fear and stress loom over us everyday and there is no relief in sight as these prisons are overfilled with masses of human mankind that co-exist in the same hell hole as the employees.

It is likely that the only conclusion reached with this mass hysteria to incarcerate every one that breaks the law is the fact that we are filling and overwhelming our prison workers with more unneeded trauma and stress with no current solution to the trend and create side effects within our free society to create more drug addicts, more alcoholics and more PTSD patients that seek help but have no state offered or corporate support groups to help them survive this negative ordeal and suffer greatly as they pass these traits on to their children and other family members.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Razor Sharp Edges Touch the Sky

Look up look up into the vast blue sky

Look into the hazy blue with the naked eye

Standing still and losing sleep

A tear for those who have gone, we often weep



I can’t remember all the times; we stood together side by side

Dressed in black in the hot July sun

To undo those evildoer’s deeds and restore the order we try

No matter how much sweat or tears or blood we shed

At the end of the day our mission has been met



Special responders’ rock and roll

To please their egos and comfort their soul

Often standing way too high

They often feel they can touch the sky



To dare an entry into a confined space

A race against time done at a rabbit’s pace

The means will justify the deeds undone

So that others after can safely follow

And continue the fight for justice



There is no fear or thoughts to die

When you gaze deeply into the sky

Surrounded with razor sharp edges to remind you of life

All is not lost as time goes by whether we live or die



I will tell you no lie, the sky is vast

And the razor sharp edges around us will endlessly last

Though imprisoned to some sense ourselves

Our spirit will outlast the even the past



Saying you are CERT and dressed in black

Is about as good as life can get

And if you are wondering if you can touch the sky

Immortals will tell you that in time you will die



So do your deeds and do them well

Don’t let your egos create a life that swells

courageous at heart and feeling oh so cool

don’t ever act like those other fools



stay close to your feet and never wander

and don't try to touch the sky until its time

for you and I will forever wonder

if in fact, the razor sharp edges will forever keep us

from touching the sky

Correctional Officers, A dying breed




I took the oath to God to do it right and carry out it with courage

I knew this the job I would see dead men walking

And walking in those shoes for whom I followed

After suffering so much pain and sorrow

I have nothing left to fear but fear itself


I was trained to do the job and not back down from anyone

I was told if their lips were moving they told you a lie

In this life and the life thereafter I wanted peace

My life is fulfilled as some laughter goes with it

There is nothin that will take it from me


I’m not breaking down on this now or ever

I will live with the nightmares in my head forever

Kickin back to those days when a throwdown meant you bled

And every word you said was how it was read

Do not wonder if I am sad


I did my job with honesty and courage

I didn’t get into this because I cared or fought for change

Dancing with the devil has made me stronger and better

But nothin last forever and soon I will be dead


Standing up straight for I did my time with honor

Death can’t take that away from me

And when the smoke of that torpedo fades

That will be the day I will no longer be

A dying breed

The Uniform

The sole purpose of the uniform is to demonstrate harmony and respect

The ability to form a solid entity and stand together against any evil foe

That is fought hard and as we struggle to reject

The evil that is drawn to our dark side everyday and then

We battle the malevolence tomorrow all over again and again

We draw every breath to save our souls

As the words are written true on our sacred scrolls



The uniform is a standard that has been proven to be true

Some wear the brown, the black or the popular blue

Regardless of the colors, it stands for a heart that is strong

As their actions show they can’t do anything wrong

Not intended to brag or to intimidate the evil opponent

They represent the criminal justice system’s outstanding component



Reflecting our spirits and our souls showing just who we are

It is fair to say that none of us are superstars

For we battle for righteousness and justice and power

Causing other men to lay down their arms and cower

We seek no more harm and inflict any more pain than is needed

We work on good faith and the control that is seeded



And as others will confront us with a fight or dare

You will see a gathering of men and women who do not care

Showing no fear to take up arms against those evildoers day or night

After the smoke clears, you’ll see scores or more take off in flight

For the uniform gives us a sense of direction

Who we are, where we are going and giving each other protection



So when you pass on by that place surrounded with the silver razor wire

Know in your heart that our hearts are on fire

To do the job nobody else really wants to chew

But criticize us every step along the way without a mile in our shoes

We love who we are we love what we do with nothin to lose

As we perform our oath and God given tasks right or wrong

We do it wearing the uniform that keeps us strong