Wasted Honor -

Carl R. ToersBijns is the author of the Wasted Honor Trilogy [Wasted Honor I,II and Gorilla Justice] and his newest book From the Womb to the Tomb, the Tony Lester Story, which is a reflection of his life and his experiences as a correctional officer and a correctional administrator retiring with the rank of deputy warden in the New Mexico and Arizona correctional systems.

Carl also wrote a book on his combat experience in the Kindle book titled - Combat Medic - Men with destiny - A red cross of Valor -

Carl is considered by many a rogue expert in the field of prison security systems since leaving the profession. Carl has been involved in the design of many pilot programs related to mental health treatment, security threat groups, suicide prevention, and maximum custody operational plans including double bunking max inmates and enhancing security for staff. He invites you to read his books so you can understand and grasp the cultural and political implications and influences of these prisons. He deals with the emotions, the stress and anxiety as well as the realities faced working inside a prison. He deals with the occupational risks while elaborating on the psychological impact of both prison worker and prisoner.

His most recent book, Gorilla Justice, is an un-edited raw fictional version of realistic prison experiences and events through the eyes of an anecdotal translation of the inmate’s plight and suffering while enduring the harsh and toxic prison environment including solitary confinement.

Carl has been interviewed by numerous news stations and newspapers in Phoenix regarding the escape from the Kingman prison and other high profile media cases related to wrongful deaths and suicides inside prisons. His insights have been solicited by the ACLU, Amnesty International, and various other legal firms representing solitary confinement cases in California and Arizona. He is currently working on the STG Step Down program at Pelican Bay and has offered his own experience insights with the Center of Constitutional Rights lawyers and interns to establish a core program at the SHU units. He has personally corresponded and written with SHU prisoners to assess the living conditions and how it impacts their long term placement inside these type of units that are similar to those in Arizona Florence Eyman special management unit where Carl was a unit deputy warden for almost two years before his promotion to Deputy Warden of Operations in Safford and Eyman.

He is a strong advocate for the mentally ill and is a board member of David's Hope Inc. a non-profit advocacy group in Phoenix and also serves as a senior advisor for Law Enforcement Officers Advocates Council in Chino, California As a subject matter expert and corrections consultant, Carl has provided interviews and spoken on national and international radio talk shows e.g. BBC CBC Lou Show & TV shows as well as the Associated Press.

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Saturday, September 27, 2014

An Apocalyptic Ending - The End



There is plenty to talk about and speculation fuels more theories as the list grown endlessly. No sure how many more we can come up with but when it comes to fantasy and movie making creativity, this world has more geniuses than we ever needed to figure it out.
Taking modern day situations and putting it into perspective we have another theory that may work as well but not as exciting as those mentioned before as it can occur but last very briefly. A short apocalypse is neither climatic nor exciting to write about but the reality is we are headed for a World War III and nobody can stop it.
The Russians have made their move. Iran is ready to strike and Israel is threatened again by Arab nations now engaged in a coalition with the United States against the terrorist group ISIS (Islamic State) to secure the Mideast region. Our enemies are now our friends and our friends are now the enemy. It can’t be more confusing than that but that’s how we stand today. Selling weapons to our enemy has jeopardized our own ability to sustain life and freedom as we have known it in the past.
There is one salvation. There is one hope. If we take an example out of our history books we can save some part of the world but not all of it. The truth is we need a revolution in our country to take back the power we lost to politicians and corporate interests that dictate war and famine around the globe. Making the word revolution a metaphor does not make the reality any stronger. The fact is we are faced with corrupt domestic and foreign powers who seek to destroy us from the inside out.
What we need a preachy patriotic overtone to wake America up. Something that stimulates the soul and puts an adrenalin rush in every patriotic American. Something like Yankee Doodle Dandy but a little bit louder and a little bit stronger. We need resistance to change as we are the good guys. We need to overlook corruption never more.
Through time we have become a mediocre fighting force. We have been degraded and reduced down to a fraction of our once mighty fighting force strength when we were indeed a world power. Our country has relinquished that power for the sake of greed, oil, marketing and influence. We need to retake our power and build up a metaphorical army of men and women who will fight to protect our existence and freedoms.
Maybe this weakness that is growing will change. Perhaps we will become strong again but I am not hopeful this will happen without some type of Divine interference or guidance. We have lost the faith we once had a nation that stood on the principle of “in God we trust.”
We have become an unforgiving nation rather than a forgiving one. We judge, blame, accuse, persecute and imprison anyone who speaks against the tone of Washington D. C.
We need to find the right leadership quickly. Someone dynamic but faithful to God, the real God. Someone academically intelligent and with an intestinal fortitude to be courageous unconditionally. A person who won’t stand on the side lines and watch the destruction occur but rather actively intervene with God-given skills and sound of mind.
He or she does not have to be a battle hardened individual nor a cynical one. However, it must be someone who does not let their emotions overrun their self-control and become an out of control tyrannical leader. Someone not crazy about the power to lead and someone who cares about the people rather than the materialistic things we have developed to lust. Neither paranoid but certainly clairvoyant, this person must step up soon to save up from an apocalyptic hell.
So who is this hero we are looking for you ask? The truth is we don’t have anyone like this and it is for certain we are all going to hell one way or another because civilization as we know it is ending. Maybe not tomorrow but soon. We must transform the best we can to fight off the end but unless we come up with a miracle, the world is doomed to end forever in less time we could ever estimate.



The Vietnam War was mine too




Regrettably, World War II was my father’s war. He was a prisoner of war and experienced it from the perspective of a soldier in combat, in prison and as a veteran. He was against war but he fought it with valor. He spent five years inside a prison camp where he was abused and mistreated just like his fellow soldiers captured at the battle’s end.
Traditionally, my family has always been engaged in a war, a feudal war, a civil war, a war of words and a war for peace. We had many discussions of war in our family but the Vietnam War was mine and my brothers.  It’s true, we won the war but we lost it at the end. We fought valiantly and thousands died but when it was over, we never won. We could have won and we should have won but we lost the war.
We didn’t lose it on the battlefields, we fought with exceptionalism and heroism but we lost the war politically. At home there were families torn apart by the war and each had their own reasons why. The Vietnam War was a bitter war that should have never been begun. It was doomed from the moment we set boots on the ground on this troubled South Republic of Vietnam.
Soldiers fought fearlessly and struggled to meet the invisible enemy so hard to find. While at home there were people, mothers, fathers, sons and daughters protesting this war with passion from their hearts. There were politicians and truth tellers on television telling the public how it really was while soldiers died in vain as the cause was never defined or ever discussed.
Some say it was a futile exercise to fight communism while others said it was an exercise for freedom. The only truth that mattered was the exercise on the battlefields as the casualties mounted and the names on the wall brought out the reality of its horror and sacrificing of honored souls who died for their country.
There were those who volunteered and there were those who were drafted. It didn’t matter in the end as they all worked together to get tougher and braver so they could endure the fight. Their color didn’t matter and their loss affected everyone who knew their name.
Some came home with guilt. Some came home without limb and some came home in a box. There are lots of article and pictures about those heroes but nobody really cared about them coming home until about twenty years later when the nation’s conscience started to dig in the reality of abandonment and betrayal to those who served with honor but were disrespected at the end.
In time the guilt goes away while the trauma is never ending. There isn’t enough said or done to heal the visible wounds on the outside while they suffer with the invisible wounds on the inside the head as well as the heart. An everlasting condition that would occasionally tear them apart.
This stuff didn’t make the headlines then and it rarely makes it today. We don’t talk about and it will never go away. The movies portray the war with heroes and enemies and battle and death. We watch them over and over but never really grasp the fact that war is much more than that.
I didn’t join up with the Army for back then the Army joined me up against my will. They said it was for the duty to my country so I stayed and endured the pain. Going through basic training I realize I was but ant in a very large colony and who I was would never be the same.
They take your heart, your soul and the mind and take away your name. They teach you how to kill and stay alive as your individuality dissipates away. Like the smoke of a lost torpedo, you never know where you are going to stay but one thing is for sure and that is war will never go away.
My father was a proud and honorable soldier. He had told me war stories that made me realize that there was no shame in feeling bad for those who were killed and those who were about to die. He never joked about the war and neither did I. there is no honor in desecrating souls who stood tall and died.
No matter what side they were on, no matter what uniform they wore. They were soldiers who courageously answered the call for duty and fight a war. So when you hear the stories told about the war and how it was fought. Remember that no war is ever won for it lasts forever inside your heart.


You had everything I ever wanted




Times have changed over the last sixty some years as I can personally attest to on my own experiences in life and the surrounding dynamics. We have become a nation of political correctness and engaged into social niceties that sometimes don’t make much sense when it comes to our own life. We give up things for people we don’t even know. On the other hand, I refuse to give up what I have, what I earned or what I fought for. It’s just not right to ask to do so either.
Political correctness has drifted us away from the shore of reasoning. It has caused us to be a part of society that has turned ugly and mean in spirit and in behaviors. The human race has degraded so much, we hardly recognize it any longer as the race that built the social cultures we once lived by but have mutated into splinter groups difficult to recognize.
For example, the way humans used to interact was simple and not much to figure out. Boy meets girl. Girl meets boy. A human courtship is possible. Over time, there was the engagement and then the marriage. It seemed simple enough to figure out and I always thought it was. Let me warn you, if you are easily offended, it’s best you not read this and just move on.
Today the pair bonding process has changed. It is no longer boy meets girl or girl meets boy but rather it has become a little more complicated than that. We haves girl meets girl and boy meets boy and then the courtship is possible. How has this happened? Is the answer that easy to come up with today? Not really but we should go back over time and see what transpired since the 70’s or even the 60’s.
We have always had heterosexuals, homosexuals as well as gays and lesbians. It has been a part of our lives and history thus we know they exist but when you meet it face to face it is much more difficult to understand than reading it out of a book. However, today, things have changed whereas there are now laws on the books that gives each one of these groups equal rights as a couple. Whether we agree or disagree, the laws have changed and society’s cultural curve has as well.
Being a baby boomer and contributing to this madness by having a shared responsibility of our children of the baby boomers, there are reasons for such changes. Baby boomers, as a group, impacted society in an overwhelming way that is partly responsible for what is happening in our society today.
Based on our mistakes, our reckless behaviors and irresponsible corrupt, materialistic and sinister ways, we created generations that mutated our values into their own while at the same time, holding on to some of the traditional values mixing them into a melting pot of ideologies.
Today we have pot smoking, pill popping, war-mongering and many other characteristics out there leading our kids into damnation.  On the other side, we have love making, climate control and naturalist, organic freaks who refuse to use the chemicals around us. The world seemed to have become more corrupt as time goes by and there appears to be no end to this madness. Eventually, the apocalyptic event will end it all but that’s another matter we can talk about later.
In the meantime, governments have become freedom-crushing instruments of privacy invasions in the name of fighting terrorism and corporations are dominating the systems we rely on. Whether the technology is good for us depends on how it is used.
Some say if you can’t beat them, join them. It seems simple enough. Never mind the claims there is another better world. Giving up your freedom seems reasonable to get the things you want in life until it no longer matters and you are compromised just like the rest. Love is life’ most precious gift but it seems to be fading away quickly. Hate appears to be the dominant force today.
There is more hate in this world than ever before. There are people today who boast that the best things in life are free and refuse to work one day in their lives to earn it. Life as we knew it has ended. The new world order is confusing, chaotic and never ending in a state of political correctness and religious warfare. We are our own worst enemy and we never realized it but there was a time when we had everything we ever wanted or needed to be happy.
Do I blame our “visions of free-love” as the root of all evil? Not even close. That’s not what started this disease. This concept was built on a lighter stage of consciousness, enlightenment and ultimate happiness in life, not the opposite. Granted, it might have been abused by many and created a chemical mutation in our brains as the LSD and other hallucinogenic substances were plentiful those days.
However, society has evolved into an illicit drug use meth, cocaine, heroin, abusive prescription pill pandemic and mental illness runs rampant without treatment endangering both the person and the society they live in. we have ruined any vision we may have ever had to see the world like we wanted it to be. It is with a high degree of certainty that the baby boomer generation contributed to this mess.
Discrimination has reverted to indiscriminate feelings. Equality has been applied to everything from living to non-living fossils. The world has reached a new level of extremism and it can’t seem to stop. We live and tolerate the plagues, diseases and act as if they are acceptable.
The Ebola, HIV AIDS and other diseases are killing people but nobody is worried about them, they worry just about themselves. Cancer has spread exponentially with no cure in sight but we are talking about living on Mars and visiting the stars in the universe above us.
If you ask are we now living in the armpit of the world, I say it depends where you are in your own life and your own morality and mortality of life. Hanging onto old values can be good but not adapting to the new can bring you heartaches and sorrow.
There is no simple life today, it’s all so complicated you sometimes just want it to go away. Confused and angry are emotions to deal with but if you learn to become less discerning, you can cope with anything. Can we afford to lower the quality of the human genetic pool any further? I guess that’s a question for those living in the tomorrow.