Wasted Honor -

Carl R. ToersBijns is the author of the Wasted Honor Trilogy [Wasted Honor I,II and Gorilla Justice] and his newest book From the Womb to the Tomb, the Tony Lester Story, which is a reflection of his life and his experiences as a correctional officer and a correctional administrator retiring with the rank of deputy warden in the New Mexico and Arizona correctional systems.

Carl also wrote a book on his combat experience in the Kindle book titled - Combat Medic - Men with destiny - A red cross of Valor -

Carl is considered by many a rogue expert in the field of prison security systems since leaving the profession. Carl has been involved in the design of many pilot programs related to mental health treatment, security threat groups, suicide prevention, and maximum custody operational plans including double bunking max inmates and enhancing security for staff. He invites you to read his books so you can understand and grasp the cultural and political implications and influences of these prisons. He deals with the emotions, the stress and anxiety as well as the realities faced working inside a prison. He deals with the occupational risks while elaborating on the psychological impact of both prison worker and prisoner.

His most recent book, Gorilla Justice, is an un-edited raw fictional version of realistic prison experiences and events through the eyes of an anecdotal translation of the inmate’s plight and suffering while enduring the harsh and toxic prison environment including solitary confinement.

Carl has been interviewed by numerous news stations and newspapers in Phoenix regarding the escape from the Kingman prison and other high profile media cases related to wrongful deaths and suicides inside prisons. His insights have been solicited by the ACLU, Amnesty International, and various other legal firms representing solitary confinement cases in California and Arizona. He is currently working on the STG Step Down program at Pelican Bay and has offered his own experience insights with the Center of Constitutional Rights lawyers and interns to establish a core program at the SHU units. He has personally corresponded and written with SHU prisoners to assess the living conditions and how it impacts their long term placement inside these type of units that are similar to those in Arizona Florence Eyman special management unit where Carl was a unit deputy warden for almost two years before his promotion to Deputy Warden of Operations in Safford and Eyman.

He is a strong advocate for the mentally ill and is a board member of David's Hope Inc. a non-profit advocacy group in Phoenix and also serves as a senior advisor for Law Enforcement Officers Advocates Council in Chino, California As a subject matter expert and corrections consultant, Carl has provided interviews and spoken on national and international radio talk shows e.g. BBC CBC Lou Show & TV shows as well as the Associated Press.

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Thursday, September 3, 2015

Staring at a Black Wall



An Interpersonal Experience Staring at a Black Wall - a theory
I have often compared staring at a black wall like staring into someone’s eyes for a prolonged period of time. Regardless whether you believe me or not, such an experience is intense to say the least as it takes you into another psychological dimension. A dimension so hard to comprehend, you often end up being speechless before you can gather your thoughts on this experience. Let me sum it up by the situation getting weird and weirder as you prolong the stare.
Staring at a black wall for a long period of time is a form of disconnection – a disassociation with reality. It is often an out of body experience that is absent any reality as it has been very difficult to explain to others. This disassociation or detachment from reality can best be summed up as an unrealistic phenomenon that is filled with the imaginary mindset of creativity, visionary perceptions and full fledge hallucinations as your eyes plays tricks on your mind and what you really see. Since there are no other sensory adaptations made, it is a deliberately induced deprived state of mind. One has said that in order to have light you must have darkness. Darkness is what brings out the light. The blacker the wall, the less light you see regardless how well the room is lit up.
Staring and just focusing on the black wall, gives you a chance to become disengaged with reality and allow yourself to use your imagination to a higher level. Words come to mind to describe the reported changes. Morphing different shapes and colors from a black wall is not unusual. There are no limits to what the mind can create under such conditions as the experience us surreal. Facing the black wall, you may see faces, shapes of persons or animals or even your own face.
Much like staring at the clouds, your imagination takes over and the dark wall triggers dark ideas created by hallucinations rather than imagination. I have stared at the black wall for periods over ten minutes and as long as 30 minutes. I can tell you I have seen white dots on a solid black wall as well as other colors and shapes as the prolonged stare creates new shapes and forms. I can’t describe the conditions as they are mostly mind created or psychological in nature and since I am not an expert in the human brain, I cannot explain this. Some speculate that staring at a black wall induces a form of sensory deprivation.
Since I have also tried this with a white wall and experience nothing except the usual imaginary thoughts associated with looking at nothing but white surface, I can compare the two experiences as stark contrasting and different. So does the color black create this deprivation of your senses? How does the mind react to this trigger of darkness? Dr. David Spiegel of Stanford University explains a similar process of staring at another person as a psychological disconnection of our environment. A total separation of realities as the mind is reflecting back with some intensity that creates hallucinations. What we are imagining is created by what we see of ourselves and builds on the preface that there are imaging features triggering the conscious and subconscious thoughts inside your head.
Like a mirror, but black in surface and non-color, the image created first reflects your own image as a genesis of the process and escalates into hallucination with time attached. However, in this case, the mirror is not black thus it does not project back reflections of the environment This leads us to ponder time and space again, we are talking time and space – a commonality on many phenomenal events in our human and scientific worlds.
Some have explained that the hallucinations produced during interpersonal staring can bring to full consciousness certain subconscious beliefs or "non-integrated" parts of the self. Disconnected parts of the self -- which are usually projected during delirium -- may be integrated into consciousness. Therefore, if you choose to stare at a black wall for a prolonged period of time, you might be able to stand-in, or assimilate the same integration of your mindset and create a similar pathological circle of confirming a “reality” that is exclusively called an unconscious projection or a similar state of mind of the early stages of schizophrenic behaviors.