Wasted Honor -

Carl R. ToersBijns is the author of the Wasted Honor Trilogy [Wasted Honor I,II and Gorilla Justice] and his newest book From the Womb to the Tomb, the Tony Lester Story, which is a reflection of his life and his experiences as a correctional officer and a correctional administrator retiring with the rank of deputy warden in the New Mexico and Arizona correctional systems.

Carl also wrote a book on his combat experience in the Kindle book titled - Combat Medic - Men with destiny - A red cross of Valor -

Carl is considered by many a rogue expert in the field of prison security systems since leaving the profession. Carl has been involved in the design of many pilot programs related to mental health treatment, security threat groups, suicide prevention, and maximum custody operational plans including double bunking max inmates and enhancing security for staff. He invites you to read his books so you can understand and grasp the cultural and political implications and influences of these prisons. He deals with the emotions, the stress and anxiety as well as the realities faced working inside a prison. He deals with the occupational risks while elaborating on the psychological impact of both prison worker and prisoner.

His most recent book, Gorilla Justice, is an un-edited raw fictional version of realistic prison experiences and events through the eyes of an anecdotal translation of the inmate’s plight and suffering while enduring the harsh and toxic prison environment including solitary confinement.

Carl has been interviewed by numerous news stations and newspapers in Phoenix regarding the escape from the Kingman prison and other high profile media cases related to wrongful deaths and suicides inside prisons. His insights have been solicited by the ACLU, Amnesty International, and various other legal firms representing solitary confinement cases in California and Arizona. He is currently working on the STG Step Down program at Pelican Bay and has offered his own experience insights with the Center of Constitutional Rights lawyers and interns to establish a core program at the SHU units. He has personally corresponded and written with SHU prisoners to assess the living conditions and how it impacts their long term placement inside these type of units that are similar to those in Arizona Florence Eyman special management unit where Carl was a unit deputy warden for almost two years before his promotion to Deputy Warden of Operations in Safford and Eyman.

He is a strong advocate for the mentally ill and is a board member of David's Hope Inc. a non-profit advocacy group in Phoenix and also serves as a senior advisor for Law Enforcement Officers Advocates Council in Chino, California As a subject matter expert and corrections consultant, Carl has provided interviews and spoken on national and international radio talk shows e.g. BBC CBC Lou Show & TV shows as well as the Associated Press.

I use sarcasm, satire, parodies and other means to make you think!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
































































































































Friday, April 8, 2016

A breakdown of the books


This is book 3 of a slow building romantic relationship and personal growth experience for a young Hispanic woman trapped in her own identity crisis. This third book brings you into an underworld or dark world the author created based on the reality where ordinary people, who sought significant change in their world change their outlook of life by joining a group of Satanists cult. Each character is real and exists in our own world, right next door.

The stories told are a mixture of drama, romance, erotica, fear, death and cheating. The world they live in, captivates their mind and soul as their bodies twist with lust and love as they abandon their former religion for the pleasures of Satan. There is some blasphemy and contradictions in this book to illustrate the variances between Satanism and other practices in our lives.

The author helps the reader empathize with their personal lives by going from the light into the darkness especially Luciana, a young vibrant ex-Catholic woman who abandons the church for Satanism and finds new freedoms of liberated thinking and ways to cope with life. Over time, Luciana realizes the promise she made to Satan, would take away some of her freedoms becoming a slave to Satan through those covenants made but her life actually gets better and her dream of being an artist flourishes.

Faced with major moral issues she has to decide to be faithful to Satan and ignore her early childhood created morals and face the truth or lose her Satanic worshipping boyfriend, who has committed a lifetime of love to her but now faces a betrayal of major proportions under Satan’s Laws.

Each series is a promotion of life’s challenges where you swallow your pride and join a cult to find peace and harmony with others including yourself. Luciana is a dynamic, beautiful and intelligent artist who leaves the past behind in LA, struggles with her gang banger ex-husband’s memory, moves back to Mexico and falls in love with a fellow cult member in a house possessed by the devil. With time, she gets stronger and wiser. There are many supportive characters who all worship Lucifer and practice their rituals in the downstairs chamber where bizarre and sometimes cruel rituals take place.

One thing the author tried to express was the dissimilarity between Satanism and non-Satanic life. The differences are significantly life-impacting via decision making and makes you think. This book is slow building a relationship that makes readers aware and are sure to realize how Satanism commits your life to different standards and morals but somehow, in many ways, can make your life better. Each book elevates this character, deepens the commitment and flourishes the romance. Books 1 and 2 are preludes to the events of book 3 and focuses on relationship building, trust, love and commitments made to each other, the group and the Source – Satan. This book is definitely not for those who are Bible driven people as they might find the information in this book offensive.  



Thursday, April 7, 2016

Coming Soon


Monday, April 4, 2016

Luciana, the Santanic Hispanic Woman - Kindle book


 Excerpt from the book page 62


Luciana was thinking about what Freda had said this morning about just getting fucked by someone. Surely there wasn’t anybody else home and whoever it was, had already left the house. She assumed it was Jeff, but her instincts and intuition sensed someone else.

Women have a knack for getting those kind of feelings. Even though they may be completely wrong, it was fun trying to figure out the mystery or suspense of who is having an affair with who.

Thinking it might have been another woman, she was wondering what that would be like. She knew from her own upbringing and morals, she would never let another woman touch her intimately or even come close enough to kiss her but then, she just hadn’t quiet ever crossed that bridge before and honestly, she wasn’t sure what she would do or say in such circumstances.

In order for her to even think about this clearly, she had to understand the emotions that get twisted here when two women are attracted to each other.

Maybe, or partially, it was possible it could happen. maybe, or even probably, being with a woman can’t be as bad as it sounds as it has been a growing trend in society as lesbian and homosexuals gained the right to be married and live together as domestic partners in most states.

However, in Mexico, she wasn’t sure how society viewed such contact or relationships. she knew this would require things to be done - dirty things that required undressing, touching, kissing…and more or so she thought. She let out a laugh and decided to watch TV for a while.

In the meantime, Freda had gone up to take a shower and freshen up. She came down smelling all fresh and brought a cold beer into the living room where Luciana was watching TV. “what are you watching? Anything good on right now? I hate daytime television as there is usually nothing but novellas on and they all do the same thing – they fuck, they cheat, they kiss, they fuck and they kiss different people.”

Thinking Freda was a funny girl, she laughed loudly and agreed. They both popped a cold beer and watched some game show trying to guess the answers.

Time passed and Luciana had to ask – her curiosity peeked about one hour after Freda came down from the shower. “Tell me girl, who fucked you this morning when your hair was all tangled up and you smelled like you just broke out in a sweat?”

Freda, silently pondering her next answer, said, “I fucked Jeff, he was still here and Roxy was already gone and when I heard him in the other room, I went over there and seduced his handsome ass and fucked him hard. He didn’t mind, I think. He was still undressed and walking around in a towel after he took a shower. He was surprised to see me but he didn’t push me away. He seemed surprise I wanted to fuck him so soon after just meeting him last night.”

Luciana, sitting at the edge of the sofa asked for more details. “Well, when I entered the door wide open, he just stood there, smiling. He took one step towards me, and then another, and then, I was in his arms as he undressed me. I felt his strong hands remove my clothes and I didn’t mind it one bit that he was a little rough doing it.”

“As he held me there, undressed and naked in his arms, he picked me up and carried me to the bed where he and Roxy just got done fucking each other. He took me hard and spread my legs out so wide, I moaned with a little bit of pain as I had sore legs from hitchhiking the past few months. You know what I mean?”

Silently sitting there, Luciana was completely turned on by Freda’s story of how Jeff fucked her.

As if they were had been friends for a long time, these two girls were sitting there and gossiping about the morning’s love affair that Freda tried to hide but just had to tell the story to get it off her mind. confessing to Freda she was completely turned on by the romance, she was wet again, just from the sight of Freda telling her passionate morning fuck to her.

Something (possibly her pussy) pulled her forward, and she was sitting closer to Freda, only seconds later. Her hands were sweaty, her palms moist as her emotions were leaping from the top of her body to the very end of her body, from flesh to flesh.

The next thing Freda said was, “do you want to go upstairs? We can have our talk up there in my room and we can keep it secret.”  She gestured towards the stairway on the other side of the room, and as Luciana looked, she saw Freda walking sensually up the wide staircase, with lacquered black banisters and ruby-colored carpeted steps.

Luciana, worried to piss off Roxy, said, “Is this her house?” she asked Freda but she was already gone, disappearing into the darkness of her room.

She threaded her way through the stairway, and found her sitting on her bed, naked and wrapped only with a white towel barely covering her breasts. Her torso was almost completely exposed as her arms brushed against Luciana’s intimate body parts— she just shook her head.

She wasn’t ready to make love to a woman but the temptation sure was hard to resist. Freda was very attractive and she was on a mission— it was clear she wanted to fuck Luciana as she was here for her, and her alone, and, she realized now, absolutely no one else would do.

Unwilling to go all the way, Freda read the signs well and settled on kissing Luciana’ feet, fondling her breasts and stroking her hair and while rubbing her fingers incredibly sensuous against her bare skin, with her pussy lightly and causing Luciana to moan with pleasure.

She had to stop this before it went too far – however, the pleasure was too much for her to handle as she fell into Freda’s arms and just laid there on the bed as Freda’s mouth, lips, fingers and hands found every inch of her body and caused her to reach an orgasm that was unreal and very long overdue as a woman’s need and desire to be loved is not limited to any man or person who could arouse her moods into a state of ecstasy.

Panting and exhausted from Freda’s love-making efforts to stimulate her into a state of frenzy and ecstasy, Luciana had to collect herself and cool off a little from this erotic massage Freda just gave her that woke up every nerve and muscle inside her body. Nodding she needed a time to breathe, Freda let up her passionate movements that made every inch of Luciana tingle and let her up off the bed.

Staring at each other, eye to eye, there was a little shame coming from Luciana who had never let a woman touch her like that before. The rest of the morning was uneventful. The two girls sat and enjoyed each other’s company on the sofa and watched TV without making any sexual talk during the shows.