Wasted Honor -

Carl R. ToersBijns is the author of the Wasted Honor Trilogy [Wasted Honor I,II and Gorilla Justice] and his newest book From the Womb to the Tomb, the Tony Lester Story, which is a reflection of his life and his experiences as a correctional officer and a correctional administrator retiring with the rank of deputy warden in the New Mexico and Arizona correctional systems.

Carl also wrote a book on his combat experience in the Kindle book titled - Combat Medic - Men with destiny - A red cross of Valor -

Carl is considered by many a rogue expert in the field of prison security systems since leaving the profession. Carl has been involved in the design of many pilot programs related to mental health treatment, security threat groups, suicide prevention, and maximum custody operational plans including double bunking max inmates and enhancing security for staff. He invites you to read his books so you can understand and grasp the cultural and political implications and influences of these prisons. He deals with the emotions, the stress and anxiety as well as the realities faced working inside a prison. He deals with the occupational risks while elaborating on the psychological impact of both prison worker and prisoner.

His most recent book, Gorilla Justice, is an un-edited raw fictional version of realistic prison experiences and events through the eyes of an anecdotal translation of the inmate’s plight and suffering while enduring the harsh and toxic prison environment including solitary confinement.

Carl has been interviewed by numerous news stations and newspapers in Phoenix regarding the escape from the Kingman prison and other high profile media cases related to wrongful deaths and suicides inside prisons. His insights have been solicited by the ACLU, Amnesty International, and various other legal firms representing solitary confinement cases in California and Arizona. He is currently working on the STG Step Down program at Pelican Bay and has offered his own experience insights with the Center of Constitutional Rights lawyers and interns to establish a core program at the SHU units. He has personally corresponded and written with SHU prisoners to assess the living conditions and how it impacts their long term placement inside these type of units that are similar to those in Arizona Florence Eyman special management unit where Carl was a unit deputy warden for almost two years before his promotion to Deputy Warden of Operations in Safford and Eyman.

He is a strong advocate for the mentally ill and is a board member of David's Hope Inc. a non-profit advocacy group in Phoenix and also serves as a senior advisor for Law Enforcement Officers Advocates Council in Chino, California As a subject matter expert and corrections consultant, Carl has provided interviews and spoken on national and international radio talk shows e.g. BBC CBC Lou Show & TV shows as well as the Associated Press.

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Saturday, December 27, 2014

What I see ~


What I see


“The soul never thinks without a mental picture.” ― Aristotle


What I see is not what everybody else sees. What I look at is different from other’s view. What I am watching or observing is not important as what others view or see because each and every picture is a mental impression that comes from the soul and changes the perspective with every different beat of the heart as it performs the miracle of seeing for everyone in a most unique and different way.

Seeing is not like any other sense as it has much more of a dimension one can only imagine. Seeing is not like hearing or touching or even tasting and smelling. It is unique and triggered by the soul that paints a mental picture for you and only you.

When you create a vision you can change what you see and turn ice into rain and fire into water. You can trick the mind with your own perception as you create what you want to see in a most unique and personal way.

Seeing can be spiritually induced or created. It does not have a natural or constant factor to abide by and allows you to create a different landscape or image with the touch of the imagination as you travel a voyage that consists not just of what is real but also what you have created inside your mind. Thus the power of seeing is often underestimated by many and therefore sold short of how it can change your life.

A painter paints the colors and shapes on the canvas with his mind and his eyes while a clay maker can do the same with his hands. Both have a vision from the heart and each is bewitched in their own passion to create something that hides inside their soul.

There are no vision that are the same, there are no identical visions. Each artists creates their own and what I see differs what others might see standing in the same place at the same time. It may be a difference in shapes, colors or other attractions to beauty. These colors change when it is morning or if it is night. The light brings out the different shades of pale and yet they may match some of the others in the surroundings but never be the same.

What you can see can be determined by sound, tone or colors of the rainbow. The vision can be effected by light, by bright and dim and other luminous features that bring out the figures and shapes that are translated in your mind.

Even upon the closest inspection, what you can see could have been created by a mistake in the eye yet beautiful just the same as if it wasn’t a mistake at all. It all depends on your point of view, it all depends on how you learned to see things and from what angle. Whether you see with an old set of eyes an some that are new, it doesn’t matter for they will never see the same things that is planted in the brain.

What may seem to be large to someone could in fact be something that is small. Life is full of connections and perceptions so you can’t tell one from the other unless you have taken the time to learn and compare. Some call valleys mountains while others call mountain peaks. It is all how you see the shapes and figures that makes you want to seek.

What I see may be flat, while others see it as a deep in-depth dimension plane filled with grains of sand that is unseen by some but stands out to others as a matter of time we never paid attention to before. We see what we want to see and hardly ever pay attention to the other things that surround us.

Thus seeing is a constant struggle to see what other see. What may be in front of one’s nose may be distant for others but regardless how it is seen, it takes the uniqueness of seeing to make your soul come alive. Shakespeare said “love looks not with the eyes but with the mind; and therefore is winged Cupid painted blind.” Such truth is rarely argued as we all know that love is blind indeed.

Some things we see are mysterious to some but not to others. One quickly forgets that the mystery is your eye and want message it sends to the mind. Yet we are told that our eyes are the gateway to the soul and adding the mystery to the eye, each soul can be said to be different from others.

Some say the eye can see which man is noblest, supreme, strongest or wisest. Thus the eye is a far reaching tool that must not be taken for granted for any reason. Perhaps it is the attention to detail that gives the eyes such powerful influences on the mind and heart. Perhaps it is these eyes that set our memory or taint the recall with how we see by our other senses.

Perhaps it is true what has been said for centuries now. We don’t see things as they are but rather, we see them as we are or want them to be. Sometimes, you can see best when you close your eyes. Other times your vision is clearer when you look into your own heart, your soul and your mind to find your dreams, your awakenings and your passion.

Thus we look on the inside and the outside to get a better view. It is what makes life so exciting. Whether seeing with vision or double vision, it does not matter for you will only see what you want to see or if you are fortunate, what your heart, your soul and your mind what to let you see. Everything else does not matter as the art of being wise is to know what to overlook.

On the other end of the spectrum, do not overlook the obvious. It may create a vacuum that may cause your pain or grief. As the soul can speak with your eyes, a kiss can dampen your gaze and drive you into a state of panic if you don’t take the time to understand what you just experienced. 

Your confidence comes from the view and the view comes from your senses that have put your mind in order to remind you that the human doesn’t see things as they are but rather, as it is. True confidence comes from the view and we do not see everything in complete detail but we do in fact prioritize our seeing so we can enjoy the environment more completely.