Wasted Honor -

Carl R. ToersBijns is the author of the Wasted Honor Trilogy [Wasted Honor I,II and Gorilla Justice] and his newest book From the Womb to the Tomb, the Tony Lester Story, which is a reflection of his life and his experiences as a correctional officer and a correctional administrator retiring with the rank of deputy warden in the New Mexico and Arizona correctional systems.

Carl also wrote a book on his combat experience in the Kindle book titled - Combat Medic - Men with destiny - A red cross of Valor -

Carl is considered by many a rogue expert in the field of prison security systems since leaving the profession. Carl has been involved in the design of many pilot programs related to mental health treatment, security threat groups, suicide prevention, and maximum custody operational plans including double bunking max inmates and enhancing security for staff. He invites you to read his books so you can understand and grasp the cultural and political implications and influences of these prisons. He deals with the emotions, the stress and anxiety as well as the realities faced working inside a prison. He deals with the occupational risks while elaborating on the psychological impact of both prison worker and prisoner.

His most recent book, Gorilla Justice, is an un-edited raw fictional version of realistic prison experiences and events through the eyes of an anecdotal translation of the inmate’s plight and suffering while enduring the harsh and toxic prison environment including solitary confinement.

Carl has been interviewed by numerous news stations and newspapers in Phoenix regarding the escape from the Kingman prison and other high profile media cases related to wrongful deaths and suicides inside prisons. His insights have been solicited by the ACLU, Amnesty International, and various other legal firms representing solitary confinement cases in California and Arizona. He is currently working on the STG Step Down program at Pelican Bay and has offered his own experience insights with the Center of Constitutional Rights lawyers and interns to establish a core program at the SHU units. He has personally corresponded and written with SHU prisoners to assess the living conditions and how it impacts their long term placement inside these type of units that are similar to those in Arizona Florence Eyman special management unit where Carl was a unit deputy warden for almost two years before his promotion to Deputy Warden of Operations in Safford and Eyman.

He is a strong advocate for the mentally ill and is a board member of David's Hope Inc. a non-profit advocacy group in Phoenix and also serves as a senior advisor for Law Enforcement Officers Advocates Council in Chino, California As a subject matter expert and corrections consultant, Carl has provided interviews and spoken on national and international radio talk shows e.g. BBC CBC Lou Show & TV shows as well as the Associated Press.

I use sarcasm, satire, parodies and other means to make you think!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, January 17, 2016

Rebel inside of me

Restless Heart – Calming Seas


I lived my life in the fast lane more than once

The reasons for such wildness was never a question of sanity or anger

But rather it was a moment of calmness that the rough seas brought to my heart

Because when nothing goes right, a restless heart seeks to find a calming sea


I had been told by many that it would be the cause for my demise

Living like a masochist, they said it would eventually take my life

Why couldn’t I be like the rest of men, who walked the calming seas

Instead of finding a way to ride the highest waves brought on by these dreams


A rebel heart inside me took me to the highest summits of my life

It gave me visions of hope, desire and passion that I wanted to be a part of me

I belonged to the wildness in this world, I passed on the calming seas

It seemed that walking on the wild side of life was the life that satisfied me


Living with this kind of acceptancy, it took me on the rebel side of me

It made me feel that it was part of my destiny, leaving me never satisfied

I took the high road more often than the dark road but it barely kept me alive

You might say that making bad choices is what kept me the will to survive


The depth of my heart, the strength of my soul was what kept me going strong

Even though at times, my heart knew what I was doing was wrong

As I aged I shed my skin and outgrew that part of me that caused me pain

So every now and then, I take an opportunity to shed a tear by walking in the rain