Wasted Honor -

Carl R. ToersBijns is the author of the Wasted Honor Trilogy [Wasted Honor I,II and Gorilla Justice] and his newest book From the Womb to the Tomb, the Tony Lester Story, which is a reflection of his life and his experiences as a correctional officer and a correctional administrator retiring with the rank of deputy warden in the New Mexico and Arizona correctional systems.

Carl also wrote a book on his combat experience in the Kindle book titled - Combat Medic - Men with destiny - A red cross of Valor -

Carl is considered by many a rogue expert in the field of prison security systems since leaving the profession. Carl has been involved in the design of many pilot programs related to mental health treatment, security threat groups, suicide prevention, and maximum custody operational plans including double bunking max inmates and enhancing security for staff. He invites you to read his books so you can understand and grasp the cultural and political implications and influences of these prisons. He deals with the emotions, the stress and anxiety as well as the realities faced working inside a prison. He deals with the occupational risks while elaborating on the psychological impact of both prison worker and prisoner.

His most recent book, Gorilla Justice, is an un-edited raw fictional version of realistic prison experiences and events through the eyes of an anecdotal translation of the inmate’s plight and suffering while enduring the harsh and toxic prison environment including solitary confinement.

Carl has been interviewed by numerous news stations and newspapers in Phoenix regarding the escape from the Kingman prison and other high profile media cases related to wrongful deaths and suicides inside prisons. His insights have been solicited by the ACLU, Amnesty International, and various other legal firms representing solitary confinement cases in California and Arizona. He is currently working on the STG Step Down program at Pelican Bay and has offered his own experience insights with the Center of Constitutional Rights lawyers and interns to establish a core program at the SHU units. He has personally corresponded and written with SHU prisoners to assess the living conditions and how it impacts their long term placement inside these type of units that are similar to those in Arizona Florence Eyman special management unit where Carl was a unit deputy warden for almost two years before his promotion to Deputy Warden of Operations in Safford and Eyman.

He is a strong advocate for the mentally ill and is a board member of David's Hope Inc. a non-profit advocacy group in Phoenix and also serves as a senior advisor for Law Enforcement Officers Advocates Council in Chino, California As a subject matter expert and corrections consultant, Carl has provided interviews and spoken on national and international radio talk shows e.g. BBC CBC Lou Show & TV shows as well as the Associated Press.

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Friday, February 5, 2016

We all make Mistakes - Honor them


Honor your Mistakes



Walking along the small dirt road surrounded by trees, I felt the hostilities around me, I could see the creatures around me. If it’s one thing nature has taught me well,

it is better to think than drink from the poisoned well. Leaving behind one final thought, it is better to love than to hate and go to hell.



Surrounded by fumes, fusses and dunes made of sand and glass. The sand piles up above my head, the air is thick and there is no green grass. As the sticky sap from the trees fall to the ground telling me to move along, I sense my spirit inside my soul, is calling out my name. For my heart has become stale and leaving me for almost dead and never ever feeling the same.



Nature has more than one color as everything is not green. Walking into the woods alone has given me a chance to dream. Around me the sounds of animals rising to take a peek, and without the wrath of nature’s creatures on my mind. I walk alone inside the forest doing my own time, and wisdom and patience I seek.



Filled with anger, agonies and pain of the days before, my gaudy mind has taken me astray, leaving me blank. Draining my heart more quickly than it can refill leaving me with less doubt I can ever make it any more. My body tumbles down to the forest floor where moss and fern softens the fall. While more and more the better I can see, the closer I get to the ground. I’m headed in the wrong direction for you and me, it seems my wisdom I may have just found.





So as I realize Mother Nature can no longer guide me here or there, I know I am on my own, as my soul learns to bare and share. That when some people leave you, because they just don’t care. You are grateful of the things you have, as no one should be alone, as you walk halfway through wood knowing that no one is truly alone.



No one is alone, no matter what you think or make up your mind and act on you know of what is true. Sometimes people leave you to give you this quality time

You have to decide what’s right or wrong, it’s the right thing to do, and find your way back to the things that makes it right thus making you strong. You decide what good or bad, recollecting all the positive things you had. As long as you realize the blessings you truly possess, were received by the goodness in your heart.