My Life

Wasted Honor -

Carl R. ToersBijns is the author of the Wasted Honor Trilogy [Wasted Honor I,II and Gorilla Justice] and his newest book From the Womb to the Tomb, the Tony Lester Story, which is a reflection of his life and his experiences as a correctional officer and a correctional administrator retiring with the rank of deputy warden in the New Mexico and Arizona correctional systems.

Carl also wrote a book on his combat experience in the Kindle book titled - Combat Medic - Men with destiny - A red cross of Valor -

Carl is considered by many a rogue expert in the field of prison security systems since leaving the profession. Carl has been involved in the design of many pilot programs related to mental health treatment, security threat groups, suicide prevention, and maximum custody operational plans including double bunking max inmates and enhancing security for staff. He invites you to read his books so you can understand and grasp the cultural and political implications and influences of these prisons. He deals with the emotions, the stress and anxiety as well as the realities faced working inside a prison. He deals with the occupational risks while elaborating on the psychological impact of both prison worker and prisoner.

His most recent book, Gorilla Justice, is an un-edited raw fictional version of realistic prison experiences and events through the eyes of an anecdotal translation of the inmate’s plight and suffering while enduring the harsh and toxic prison environment including solitary confinement.

Carl has been interviewed by numerous news stations and newspapers in Phoenix regarding the escape from the Kingman prison and other high profile media cases related to wrongful deaths and suicides inside prisons. His insights have been solicited by the ACLU, Amnesty International, and various other legal firms representing solitary confinement cases in California and Arizona. He is currently working on the STG Step Down program at Pelican Bay and has offered his own experience insights with the Center of Constitutional Rights lawyers and interns to establish a core program at the SHU units. He has personally corresponded and written with SHU prisoners to assess the living conditions and how it impacts their long term placement inside these type of units that are similar to those in Arizona Florence Eyman special management unit where Carl was a unit deputy warden for almost two years before his promotion to Deputy Warden of Operations in Safford and Eyman.

He is a strong advocate for the mentally ill and is a board member of David's Hope Inc. a non-profit advocacy group in Phoenix and also serves as a senior advisor for Law Enforcement Officers Advocates Council in Chino, California As a subject matter expert and corrections consultant, Carl has provided interviews and spoken on national and international radio talk shows e.g. BBC CBC Lou Show & TV shows as well as the Associated Press.

I use sarcasm, satire, parodies and other means to make you think!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

My Life

Before the formation of my life, there was nothing – I didn’t exist therefore, nothing else existed. For me, there was nothing. No time, and no space - nothing. Life did not exist before my origin.

Yet, I am certain that at the exact time of my origin, I was but one of many origins in this big world. I was meant to be someone. It was said that I was nothing, yet, my origin tells me I was someone and I came from somewhere.

Yet, it is said, that before my time, there was time. But for me, this was the beginning of time. I knew nothing of time before me.

For my time began at my beginning, when I was born. The moment I took my first breath of life, my time began. I cannot say that before my origin, there was space, for I knew nothing of space until my origin began with living and being here on earth.

Therefore, space did not exist before my time and neither did time – there was no time or space. It was created through my origin of being born and living and being here.

For me, it was a waste of time, space, energy, light and darkness; a pure waste of things before my origin was created.

Consequently, before my origin, there was nothing – no time, no space, no light, no energy – it was dark, very dark; the darkest part of my life, began at the origin of my birth, when the light came into my life.

Since my eyes did not exist, I could not see. Since my lungs did not collect the air, I could not breathe. Since my heart did not beat, I could not feel. It was pure darkness and still, it was nothing - no time, no space, no light and no energy – just nothing.

Suddenly, there was time, space, energy and light.

I was born of energy and matter. Through the gift of time, space, energy, light and darkness - my life was created and now it all matters. No longer living in the darkness, no longer blind to the light and feeling nothing.