Wasted Honor -

Carl R. ToersBijns is the author of the Wasted Honor Trilogy [Wasted Honor I,II and Gorilla Justice] and his newest book From the Womb to the Tomb, the Tony Lester Story, which is a reflection of his life and his experiences as a correctional officer and a correctional administrator retiring with the rank of deputy warden in the New Mexico and Arizona correctional systems.

Carl also wrote a book on his combat experience in the Kindle book titled - Combat Medic - Men with destiny - A red cross of Valor -

Carl is considered by many a rogue expert in the field of prison security systems since leaving the profession. Carl has been involved in the design of many pilot programs related to mental health treatment, security threat groups, suicide prevention, and maximum custody operational plans including double bunking max inmates and enhancing security for staff. He invites you to read his books so you can understand and grasp the cultural and political implications and influences of these prisons. He deals with the emotions, the stress and anxiety as well as the realities faced working inside a prison. He deals with the occupational risks while elaborating on the psychological impact of both prison worker and prisoner.

His most recent book, Gorilla Justice, is an un-edited raw fictional version of realistic prison experiences and events through the eyes of an anecdotal translation of the inmate’s plight and suffering while enduring the harsh and toxic prison environment including solitary confinement.

Carl has been interviewed by numerous news stations and newspapers in Phoenix regarding the escape from the Kingman prison and other high profile media cases related to wrongful deaths and suicides inside prisons. His insights have been solicited by the ACLU, Amnesty International, and various other legal firms representing solitary confinement cases in California and Arizona. He is currently working on the STG Step Down program at Pelican Bay and has offered his own experience insights with the Center of Constitutional Rights lawyers and interns to establish a core program at the SHU units. He has personally corresponded and written with SHU prisoners to assess the living conditions and how it impacts their long term placement inside these type of units that are similar to those in Arizona Florence Eyman special management unit where Carl was a unit deputy warden for almost two years before his promotion to Deputy Warden of Operations in Safford and Eyman.

He is a strong advocate for the mentally ill and is a board member of David's Hope Inc. a non-profit advocacy group in Phoenix and also serves as a senior advisor for Law Enforcement Officers Advocates Council in Chino, California As a subject matter expert and corrections consultant, Carl has provided interviews and spoken on national and international radio talk shows e.g. BBC CBC Lou Show & TV shows as well as the Associated Press.

I use sarcasm, satire, parodies and other means to make you think!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Darkened Sunshine

When you agonize from sleepless days and sleepless nights you may be suffering from emotional state or experience known as a darkened sunshine. The fatigue within you creates an abyss between your head and your heart as well as your ears and your mind causing you to speak strange tongues coming swiftly out of your mouth. Short-circuited neutrons are searching for connections but the energy flows into a negative pit of fire. 

I don’t expect you to understand this phenomena known as darkened sunshine as it is an affliction that many out there don’t know about or that it even exists. Once you experienced the addiction associated with the darkened sunshine it becomes contagious and should be kept quarantined to keep it from spreading from one soul to another without warning. 

Affliction or addiction, you can’t fight darkened sunshine. It spreads like a vine from cover to cover and once in the open, nothing can stop it. There are no words that can describe this disorder but if you forgive my bluntness I will tell you that it only happens to those who succumb to the pressures of living and have thoughts of surrender on their minds. 

Darkened sunshine is like belonging to a cult of zombies who roam spiritless without purpose or any meaning. If they are lucky they find some consolation in one another and keep each other as safe as they can be as they wander without emotion around them. Baptized by fear and scared to question their invaded state of mind and body, they seldom turn on themselves but are quick to turn on others. 

Don’t turn your back to the darkened sunshine for it will grab your mind and soul with one single swipe of their one-sided blindness how and why they exist. What may be different is that what is darkened sunshine to you may in fact be a ray of light or fiery brightness to them as they feel it is there for a purpose and gives them a moment of glory they are seeking. 

People with darkened sunshine are rude and loud mouthed and can be obnoxious and oblivious to any need for manners. They will tell you to shut the hell up even when you are friendly and talk to you with a condescending tone that won’t get anyone into heaven.
In fact, even Jesus wouldn’t know what to do with darkened sunshine as they are of extraordinary evil and thrive on the flesh and brains of others and resist any goodness that may be out there around them.

Thus they yell and scream with bellows of hell and promise you the blessings of the non-living. Instead of promising heaven they promise hell and for sure if you let them, they will deliver. Confessions of their soul serves only to pacify them when cold and preaching freedom only contradicts the facts they are bound by invisible spirits and ligatures of hell-made bondage created by hate and suspicion. 

Darkened sunshine cannot survive if you test their lips and cause them to be burning. Speaking of the good versus talking of the evil will bring odd or unexplainable changes within them. Confessions of their soul helps them recover and when in the darkened stages they cannot fight but if given a ray of hope and light their bodies plots physical changes that allows them a glimpse of thoughts of escaping their bondage back into the light. 

Darkened sunshine manufacturers and entrapment and slavery to the soul and heart and keeps them in the devil’s pocket. A gospel is forbidden as the words of evil produce the perfection of evil even when digested in a partial soul that is struggling to become free. It takes more than words to break these chains of the devil and allow the sunshine to be bright again. It takes love, kindness, understanding and compassion.

So as you lay there exploited by stress and pain and sorrow. Don’t let despair get into your heart. Don’t fall for the trademark of the darkened sunshine devil who someday will try to break your heart. Don’t let your moods overwhelm you and never think you are alone. Think of those who stood beside you when darkness fell and keep them close instead of a distance away. Confessions are good for the soul and will bring the light back where it belongs – in your heart.