Wasted Honor -

Carl R. ToersBijns is the author of the Wasted Honor Trilogy [Wasted Honor I,II and Gorilla Justice] and his newest book From the Womb to the Tomb, the Tony Lester Story, which is a reflection of his life and his experiences as a correctional officer and a correctional administrator retiring with the rank of deputy warden in the New Mexico and Arizona correctional systems.

Carl also wrote a book on his combat experience in the Kindle book titled - Combat Medic - Men with destiny - A red cross of Valor -

Carl is considered by many a rogue expert in the field of prison security systems since leaving the profession. Carl has been involved in the design of many pilot programs related to mental health treatment, security threat groups, suicide prevention, and maximum custody operational plans including double bunking max inmates and enhancing security for staff. He invites you to read his books so you can understand and grasp the cultural and political implications and influences of these prisons. He deals with the emotions, the stress and anxiety as well as the realities faced working inside a prison. He deals with the occupational risks while elaborating on the psychological impact of both prison worker and prisoner.

His most recent book, Gorilla Justice, is an un-edited raw fictional version of realistic prison experiences and events through the eyes of an anecdotal translation of the inmate’s plight and suffering while enduring the harsh and toxic prison environment including solitary confinement.

Carl has been interviewed by numerous news stations and newspapers in Phoenix regarding the escape from the Kingman prison and other high profile media cases related to wrongful deaths and suicides inside prisons. His insights have been solicited by the ACLU, Amnesty International, and various other legal firms representing solitary confinement cases in California and Arizona. He is currently working on the STG Step Down program at Pelican Bay and has offered his own experience insights with the Center of Constitutional Rights lawyers and interns to establish a core program at the SHU units. He has personally corresponded and written with SHU prisoners to assess the living conditions and how it impacts their long term placement inside these type of units that are similar to those in Arizona Florence Eyman special management unit where Carl was a unit deputy warden for almost two years before his promotion to Deputy Warden of Operations in Safford and Eyman.

He is a strong advocate for the mentally ill and is a board member of David's Hope Inc. a non-profit advocacy group in Phoenix and also serves as a senior advisor for Law Enforcement Officers Advocates Council in Chino, California As a subject matter expert and corrections consultant, Carl has provided interviews and spoken on national and international radio talk shows e.g. BBC CBC Lou Show & TV shows as well as the Associated Press.

I use sarcasm, satire, parodies and other means to make you think!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

The True Way to Find Pleasures and Pulsations of Life

The True Way to Find Pleasure & Pulsation of Life


We are often worried about missing life’s pleasures. We talk about having bliss and happiness in our lives but rarely feel we have known, experienced or understand the significance well enough to explain it to others. The truth escapes us sometimes when we talk about life’s pleasures and pulsations as these are vibrations of life considered to be the ultimate orgasm of life itself.

As humans, we can experience bliss. It is believed to be a separated emotion from the other sensory elements humans possess and is in fact something desired but rarely experienced until sometime after the happiness or event has happened. You might say it is part of the reflection where you grasp and understand the moment much better than at time it occurred. Bliss can seem too unreal and unattainable for some people, at best it is experienced at rare moments in your life.

Bliss is a higher state of pleasure. It is a spiritual state of mind. It happens in those fully conscious moments of unobstructed emotion as the human body and mind bond for a moment as one and make it seem like an out of body experience. It is a rare form of energy and is considered to be one of the purest forms of pleasure. It is the harmony of a perfect union between the hearts, the soul, the body and the energy provide. It seems to be cosmic in nature and origin.

One cannot place their hands on bliss. One cannot feel the pulsation or rhythm of bliss through their sensory preceptors or body. So whether you are a liberated person or one who has no blocks of nature’s inhibitions, bliss carries with it positive energy and a high degree of pleasure. It is a moment in time where the pulsation of positive energy overcomes the negativity and erases the fear of our most basic inner struggles with life itself. It simulates an out of body experience but is real to the person who attains this flow of energy throughout their existence.

Bliss, pleasure and positive pulsations can never be achieved by those who block the human mind’s obstructions to happiness and freedom.  It cannot be experienced by those who block their spiritual self and deny them the pleasures of life. One must have the capacity for pleasure to experience it. One must have the means of carrying this pulsation of energy to a higher degree to attain bliss. Thus the human mind and spirit are interactive and required to achieve an interdependent relationship that produces bliss.

One has to ask quickly, what are these obstructions or blocks that may hinder pleasurable times and bliss. How can you become aware of such impediments and what shall you do to reduce them as you long to reach a state of bliss. If you can’t reduce them, how do you remove these barricades in your life? The fact is, longing for bliss does not come easy. One has to work for it with deliberate effort. One has to fight a war within themselves at times to conquer the spirit and energy for such pulsations of bliss.

Pleasure, in the real sense, is intensely fleshly and intensely spiritual. There is no division between the fleshly and spiritual state. So pleasure is the ultimate reality. Bliss is not—as religion seems to imply in its misunderstood interpretations—a reward for having been “good.”  Bliss is the natural state of a unified being in harmony with itself and the universe.

If you want to attain bliss you have to devote time and effort to this adventure. In the journey, you will feel increasingly personal fulfillment and self-growth along the way. The capacity to love intimately and completely with your body, soul, and spirit will be the goal that simultaneously advances your self-purification—for one cannot exist without the other.

Obstructions come in many forms and are a manifestation of division, conflict and denial of things in your life. Associated pains are frustrations, anger, mistakes, sins, morality, personal dissatisfactions or lack of confidence, commitment and a variety of human pleasures that seem real but have hidden motives or substitutes for what is really required to make you happy and at peace with yourself.

How can you truly commit yourself to integrity, truth, deepest honesty and a positive approach to yourself and life?  Do you possess an altered ego, distorted pride? How can you wish to abandon negative pleasure, these false satisfactions of your pretenses, your role-playing, and your defenses?  Failing to abandon such negative energy creates negative pleasures but conflicts with your reality of living with bliss.

How can you truly commit yourself to integrity, truth, deepest honesty and a positive approach to yourself and life?  How can you wish to abandon negative pleasure, the pseudo-satisfactions of your pretenses, your role-playing, your defenses?  One has to ask, who is cheating on who?

As long as you are convinced that these substitutes are all the pleasure you can have and that living a decent life implies sacrifice, you cannot even believe in pleasure. This difficulty is intensified because you cannot bear pleasure exactly to the degree that you cling to all these false ways of life. You become capable of taking in genuine pleasure only to the degree you give up the false, negative pleasure.

You must find a way to break through the vicious circle in which you are caught, which goes like this:  The less you truly want to give up all the subtle falsities and destructive defenses, the less you can accept pleasure.

Therefore you cannot believe in it; therefore you cannot want to give up that which obstructs you from experiencing it; therefore both the will and commitment to experience pleasure, nor the giving up of destructive, life-inhibiting patterns can exist.

Your innermost being does not make it possible. Your energy is engaged in negative inner activities. By the same token, to the degree that you assume self-responsibility, to the degree you respect and love yourself because you no longer cheat even in the subtlest of ways, to that same degree you become more and more capable of experiencing pleasure.

The more you can look forward to a full and blissful existence, the less hard it will seem to give up these destructive patterns on the deepest level imaginable, to stand on your own feet, to accept necessary frustrations. The equation of the acceptance of full autonomy with the capacity for pleasure is extremely important to comprehend. One is not possible without the other.

To begin this journey you must learn how to meditate and find the connection between truth and reality. You can only attain bliss when you are honest with yourself and become less dependent on others for your emotional and personal growth.

One has to abandon fear, hate and resentment for others and live within the means provided by the energy maintained as it pulsates through your mind and body.  Therefore pleasure and spirituality, pleasure and decency, pleasure and emotional maturity, pleasure and physical health are all intricately and intimately connected.