Wasted Honor -

Carl R. ToersBijns is the author of the Wasted Honor Trilogy [Wasted Honor I,II and Gorilla Justice] and his newest book From the Womb to the Tomb, the Tony Lester Story, which is a reflection of his life and his experiences as a correctional officer and a correctional administrator retiring with the rank of deputy warden in the New Mexico and Arizona correctional systems.

Carl also wrote a book on his combat experience in the Kindle book titled - Combat Medic - Men with destiny - A red cross of Valor -

Carl is considered by many a rogue expert in the field of prison security systems since leaving the profession. Carl has been involved in the design of many pilot programs related to mental health treatment, security threat groups, suicide prevention, and maximum custody operational plans including double bunking max inmates and enhancing security for staff. He invites you to read his books so you can understand and grasp the cultural and political implications and influences of these prisons. He deals with the emotions, the stress and anxiety as well as the realities faced working inside a prison. He deals with the occupational risks while elaborating on the psychological impact of both prison worker and prisoner.

His most recent book, Gorilla Justice, is an un-edited raw fictional version of realistic prison experiences and events through the eyes of an anecdotal translation of the inmate’s plight and suffering while enduring the harsh and toxic prison environment including solitary confinement.

Carl has been interviewed by numerous news stations and newspapers in Phoenix regarding the escape from the Kingman prison and other high profile media cases related to wrongful deaths and suicides inside prisons. His insights have been solicited by the ACLU, Amnesty International, and various other legal firms representing solitary confinement cases in California and Arizona. He is currently working on the STG Step Down program at Pelican Bay and has offered his own experience insights with the Center of Constitutional Rights lawyers and interns to establish a core program at the SHU units. He has personally corresponded and written with SHU prisoners to assess the living conditions and how it impacts their long term placement inside these type of units that are similar to those in Arizona Florence Eyman special management unit where Carl was a unit deputy warden for almost two years before his promotion to Deputy Warden of Operations in Safford and Eyman.

He is a strong advocate for the mentally ill and is a board member of David's Hope Inc. a non-profit advocacy group in Phoenix and also serves as a senior advisor for Law Enforcement Officers Advocates Council in Chino, California As a subject matter expert and corrections consultant, Carl has provided interviews and spoken on national and international radio talk shows e.g. BBC CBC Lou Show & TV shows as well as the Associated Press.

I use sarcasm, satire, parodies and other means to make you think!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, July 12, 2015

The Secret is still in the middle - The Circle of Life

The Secret is still in the middle


We dance outside the Circle but the Secret is still in the middle, as it can have so many different meanings. It could all depend on your vision, your creativity and your imagination. It could all be left up to the critical interpretation of you, the reader and how your heart reacts to life.

How your mind is structured, how it processes and what value system it brings into the equation determines how you perceive the truth to be. It could be based on mere observation, reading, or experiencing the pain or passion, personally we endure during our lifetime.

Life is not a tapestry of words and rhymes, it doesn’t always make any sense and because we use our conscience as our guiding light, we devise our voice to be the instrument of our minds and dance on the outside of the circle, hoping in finding the secret, that is hidden inside.

We are all creatures of the universe, no one was born with perfection. Yes, it is true as we all possess imperfections, giving us the ability to choose between right and wrong, weak or strong. We dance around an imaginary ring, we dance what is called the dance of life and until we find the last dance to determine our destiny to come, the rest is very uncertain. The dance is life, the act of dancing is called living. Lively human creatures, we wander through time looking for that source of light that gives us pleasures and hope of dreams coming true.

We are like moths, we are attracted to the light, and until we find this source so bright, we dance, and dance, sometimes all the way through the night. We can do wrong we can do right, but the ultimate goal is to find the light.

A voice can be external. My voice can softly remain inside. The secret of life lies inside that circle and the clues we are given can mean different things to different people. Nobody is perfect and nobody is the same.

The circle is an integral part of the nucleus, the eternal movement of life. Perhaps some stand still, while others dance around it, above it or underneath, but regardless it all comes down to one’s personal will and the passion to make the best of life. A circle of life and death, an expression used so often we forget the meaning. We seek the truth and ignorantly ignore the clues that are given to us daily. At times, we have no idea what we are looking, for so we just dance, until we find the purpose given under the stars of heaven.

We all guess, we all play the game of life with chances and risks that others might not take. The clues of what life brings are guessing as well, but we really don’t know until we dance. Standing still does not give us will, so we dance until the morning light.

The secret is something we long for. The secret is a symbol for something we know. We look at life, we search for clues and once it is known what the symbol in the center of the circle represent, we find our truth, our knowledge and our identity for our purpose under heaven.

An allegory of life, a circle no less, in which we, as humans live but dance around the outside until we find the secret inside the circle. At one point in life, we stop dancing but until that endless time of no more motion comes, we dance and move closer to the center of the circle as we search for the secret that shall free us from the vicious circle of life, death, pain, and sorrow and embrace the true knowledge who we are for tomorrow.