Wasted Honor -

Carl R. ToersBijns is the author of the Wasted Honor Trilogy [Wasted Honor I,II and Gorilla Justice] and his newest book From the Womb to the Tomb, the Tony Lester Story, which is a reflection of his life and his experiences as a correctional officer and a correctional administrator retiring with the rank of deputy warden in the New Mexico and Arizona correctional systems.

Carl also wrote a book on his combat experience in the Kindle book titled - Combat Medic - Men with destiny - A red cross of Valor -

Carl is considered by many a rogue expert in the field of prison security systems since leaving the profession. Carl has been involved in the design of many pilot programs related to mental health treatment, security threat groups, suicide prevention, and maximum custody operational plans including double bunking max inmates and enhancing security for staff. He invites you to read his books so you can understand and grasp the cultural and political implications and influences of these prisons. He deals with the emotions, the stress and anxiety as well as the realities faced working inside a prison. He deals with the occupational risks while elaborating on the psychological impact of both prison worker and prisoner.

His most recent book, Gorilla Justice, is an un-edited raw fictional version of realistic prison experiences and events through the eyes of an anecdotal translation of the inmate’s plight and suffering while enduring the harsh and toxic prison environment including solitary confinement.

Carl has been interviewed by numerous news stations and newspapers in Phoenix regarding the escape from the Kingman prison and other high profile media cases related to wrongful deaths and suicides inside prisons. His insights have been solicited by the ACLU, Amnesty International, and various other legal firms representing solitary confinement cases in California and Arizona. He is currently working on the STG Step Down program at Pelican Bay and has offered his own experience insights with the Center of Constitutional Rights lawyers and interns to establish a core program at the SHU units. He has personally corresponded and written with SHU prisoners to assess the living conditions and how it impacts their long term placement inside these type of units that are similar to those in Arizona Florence Eyman special management unit where Carl was a unit deputy warden for almost two years before his promotion to Deputy Warden of Operations in Safford and Eyman.

He is a strong advocate for the mentally ill and is a board member of David's Hope Inc. a non-profit advocacy group in Phoenix and also serves as a senior advisor for Law Enforcement Officers Advocates Council in Chino, California As a subject matter expert and corrections consultant, Carl has provided interviews and spoken on national and international radio talk shows e.g. BBC CBC Lou Show & TV shows as well as the Associated Press.

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Tuesday, February 23, 2016

Sinuous Expressions


Sinuous Expressions of a Mystery Woman – an Unusual Attraction




It came to pass my ears heard a song coming out of the dense jungle. Surely, this was my imagination.  The song was mesmerizing like the rhythm of the rain, and its sinuous melody handled my heart and mind with love and curiosity. Surely, it was not safe to enter the density darkened foliage without a guide to help me stay on the path and not stray away from civilization.

Once again, my will was formed by my own curiosity, as my footsteps hastened towards the sounds of laughter and joy. My ears were blazingly hot from the desire to find the source of this sinuous expression of music, while my body felt the impact of the pouring rain steadily falling on my head. Mysterious visions were forming in my imagination. It was like I took a drug or something intoxicating.

Certainly, my heart was pounding faster, seeking the satisfaction of the impending bond of the unknown with deep anticipation. For once in my life, I felt alive. There was a strong reincarnation deep inside of me that caused this sinuous melody to move me like I never moved before.

With the sounds of a strange and never heard before melody closing within with every step I took, I drifted away into an imaginary world of romance. There it seemed, I found an unusual persuasive passion, strumming my soul along with the beat of the jungle now wide open as the rain clouds began clearing and showing me the clarity of the night under the heavens and moon above.

There was silence, complete silence as the rhythm had been drowned out to voice. Voices that invited me to sit with them and retire for the night. Fully awakened at midnight, I stared up to the stars and felt a blessing come over me as the stars twinkled brightly as if they were saying I was home, I was home.

Sometime early morning, I awoke with a beautiful woman by my side. Her jade green eyes flashed announced herself as a goddess of love and beauty. My heart, softly beating and nearly still, told me she was the one, she was the one. Flashing her stunning smile, she held my hand as she spoke to me softly.

Melodious and rhythmically vibrations responded to these enhanced ambiences, drowning out my past and only envisioning my future. Surely, such a captured moment of romance would not last forever, it never does or had, as I had experienced it at best, last very long.

This curvaceous woman only added to the mystery of what was happening. Seeking an answer, I whispered to her softly in her ear; “what am I doing here.” Her smile was captivating; her voice was made of silk. Her mere presence as she gazed into my eyes, was that of a beneficent flower that had the power to confer harmony, melody and symmetry to take my love for her to a spiritual elevation and joy beyond anything I had ever experienced before.

These heavy cosmic rhythms personified our romantic interlude and emotions. Her presence the night before was like an ascending star coming down like an angel from heaven. An angel who wanted to be loved and held by me, and only me.

Somehow, at the end of the second day, this special moment had turned into rare occasion of peace and harmony inside of me. For once in my life the stars, universe and the earth, wind, rain and fire, all had come together and coincided to bring me the most beautiful woman I have ever met, declaring my soul completely full with human contentment and desires.