Wasted Honor -

Carl R. ToersBijns is the author of the Wasted Honor Trilogy [Wasted Honor I,II and Gorilla Justice] and his newest book From the Womb to the Tomb, the Tony Lester Story, which is a reflection of his life and his experiences as a correctional officer and a correctional administrator retiring with the rank of deputy warden in the New Mexico and Arizona correctional systems.

Carl also wrote a book on his combat experience in the Kindle book titled - Combat Medic - Men with destiny - A red cross of Valor -

Carl is considered by many a rogue expert in the field of prison security systems since leaving the profession. Carl has been involved in the design of many pilot programs related to mental health treatment, security threat groups, suicide prevention, and maximum custody operational plans including double bunking max inmates and enhancing security for staff. He invites you to read his books so you can understand and grasp the cultural and political implications and influences of these prisons. He deals with the emotions, the stress and anxiety as well as the realities faced working inside a prison. He deals with the occupational risks while elaborating on the psychological impact of both prison worker and prisoner.

His most recent book, Gorilla Justice, is an un-edited raw fictional version of realistic prison experiences and events through the eyes of an anecdotal translation of the inmate’s plight and suffering while enduring the harsh and toxic prison environment including solitary confinement.

Carl has been interviewed by numerous news stations and newspapers in Phoenix regarding the escape from the Kingman prison and other high profile media cases related to wrongful deaths and suicides inside prisons. His insights have been solicited by the ACLU, Amnesty International, and various other legal firms representing solitary confinement cases in California and Arizona. He is currently working on the STG Step Down program at Pelican Bay and has offered his own experience insights with the Center of Constitutional Rights lawyers and interns to establish a core program at the SHU units. He has personally corresponded and written with SHU prisoners to assess the living conditions and how it impacts their long term placement inside these type of units that are similar to those in Arizona Florence Eyman special management unit where Carl was a unit deputy warden for almost two years before his promotion to Deputy Warden of Operations in Safford and Eyman.

He is a strong advocate for the mentally ill and is a board member of David's Hope Inc. a non-profit advocacy group in Phoenix and also serves as a senior advisor for Law Enforcement Officers Advocates Council in Chino, California As a subject matter expert and corrections consultant, Carl has provided interviews and spoken on national and international radio talk shows e.g. BBC CBC Lou Show & TV shows as well as the Associated Press.

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Tuesday, August 12, 2014

End of my Days - Sharing a vision of an older man who wanted to ensure he had a shelter for his soul




Photo by Maggie Irwin

There are some concerns arising for the end of my days
There are those needs I must put away some plans for finding a shelter for my soul
I cannot leave it here or there without a protector or possessor
For the life I have lived has touched so many souls

I want to be burned and not put into the ground
I want to be open in the air and spread my ashes all around
Good fortune has followed me and I feel very blessed
But to find a shelter for my soul is now my best interest.

I made some mistakes and I have some regrets
But when the Good Lord calls me I shall carry these burdens no more
And although I have been brave and met the courage for the tasks
I now believe it’s time for me to rest.

My end game will be my new game as I see the gates of heaven nearby
And ask for forgiveness for the harm I hope the good Lord will buy
For I am sure I will need a place to stay although I cannot pay
But a place to rest and shelter for my soul is what I hope I may

Oh if my days could have been all over again
I would have spent my time getting out of the rain
But the rain was what attracted me to all I have ever asked for and seen
As a knock on a door freed me from the shadow of my name and a new life can begin

I am weary of these burdens I carried I am tired of this mortal load
To do what is right and rather than follow others or those who have told
That heaven is imaginary and often never found
But what I know is that I will fall into the arms of heaven and by God’s love I am bound