Wasted Honor -- - Say What you Need To Say......: Life is Oxymoronic

Wasted Honor -

Carl R. ToersBijns is the author of the Wasted Honor Trilogy [Wasted Honor I,II and Gorilla Justice] and his newest book From the Womb to the Tomb, the Tony Lester Story, which is a reflection of his life and his experiences as a correctional officer and a correctional administrator retiring with the rank of deputy warden in the New Mexico and Arizona correctional systems.

Carl also wrote a book on his combat experience in the Kindle book titled - Combat Medic - Men with destiny - A red cross of Valor -

Carl is considered by many a rogue expert in the field of prison security systems since leaving the profession. Carl has been involved in the design of many pilot programs related to mental health treatment, security threat groups, suicide prevention, and maximum custody operational plans including double bunking max inmates and enhancing security for staff. He invites you to read his books so you can understand and grasp the cultural and political implications and influences of these prisons. He deals with the emotions, the stress and anxiety as well as the realities faced working inside a prison. He deals with the occupational risks while elaborating on the psychological impact of both prison worker and prisoner.

His most recent book, Gorilla Justice, is an un-edited raw fictional version of realistic prison experiences and events through the eyes of an anecdotal translation of the inmate’s plight and suffering while enduring the harsh and toxic prison environment including solitary confinement.

Carl has been interviewed by numerous news stations and newspapers in Phoenix regarding the escape from the Kingman prison and other high profile media cases related to wrongful deaths and suicides inside prisons. His insights have been solicited by the ACLU, Amnesty International, and various other legal firms representing solitary confinement cases in California and Arizona. He is currently working on the STG Step Down program at Pelican Bay and has offered his own experience insights with the Center of Constitutional Rights lawyers and interns to establish a core program at the SHU units. He has personally corresponded and written with SHU prisoners to assess the living conditions and how it impacts their long term placement inside these type of units that are similar to those in Arizona Florence Eyman special management unit where Carl was a unit deputy warden for almost two years before his promotion to Deputy Warden of Operations in Safford and Eyman.

He is a strong advocate for the mentally ill and is a board member of David's Hope Inc. a non-profit advocacy group in Phoenix and also serves as a senior advisor for Law Enforcement Officers Advocates Council in Chino, California As a subject matter expert and corrections consultant, Carl has provided interviews and spoken on national and international radio talk shows e.g. BBC CBC Lou Show & TV shows as well as the Associated Press.

I use sarcasm, satire, parodies and other means to make you think!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, April 11, 2015

Life is Oxymoronic - a short poem

Life is Oxymoronic

How do you deal with your circumstances in life? How do you make it all come together and make sense in what happens and why it happens to you, my friend?

What is it that tells you to stay, to move or to turn around and how does that space inside your head keep you so clear on where you want to go?

How do we live with terror and how do we tell our love apart? What is real and what is disappointment and how do we say we care but the disillusion drives the others away.

I feel so strong yet I can sense the frailness in my bones as I walked a thousand miles to see my loving parents who passed away when I was but a young man not yet grown but old enough to know better and become a better son.

How do I thank the Lord for the silence in my head and keep my heart so strong as I know the consequences of doing anything wrong.

I can honestly say, the years have been kind but the last few years have been most difficult for me as it watched from afar and see so many shed their tears. I think of the church as a temple of tears but can also see it as a temple of fears.

Life is tough yet I have softened up to the point where I cry so easy whenever I see a kindness committed or a fire ball in the sky. I’ve seen the lunar eclipse a time or three and the sky darken around me just before it brought the light.

Not strong enough to fight, not weak enough to take flight, I stand my ground and pray you will be around when it’s my turn to go to the earth.

For being with you has made me strong and although my life has been difficult at best, I know I am weak,

For although I feel fine when I am alone, my head once laid down on my pillow of comforts, for one, cannot sleep or rest………….. until I know you are around.